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Twas A Crazy Fortnight

Ok, so NOW I am back to normal blogging.. 😉

I am so sorry for my absence!! Although things have been a little less crazy these past few days, I still haven’t been able to find the time to sit down and blog till now. I have been reading up on you girls though, and will do some proper commenting later 🙂

So, I think we may have overwhelmed my cousin the first week with all the things we did, cause these past few days when I ask him what he wants to do the answer is usually along the lines of:

“stay in and take it easy”

So these past few days we have mostly just bummed around the house while he plays with his new MacBook, except for the occasional trip downtown to do some shop browsing. I did not mind the reduced activity at all – I think I also needed a bit of a break from hosting and sightseeing myself. 😉

Here are the few photographed eats from the past few days:
DSC01916Mocha Boost.
This came in a variety pack, so there was only one. I hope they start making 6 packs of this though cause it was yummmeehh!

DSC01926Snack: English muffin with laughin’ cow cheese, and diced tomato. Some vanilla Boost alongside.
DSC01919A lovely dessert: Aero Caramel Bar and Chocolate Milk

We did have quite the crazy weekend though. On friday we hosted a pre drink at my house which was lots of fun! All the girls came as well as some guy friends from school. My cousin was soooo intrigued by “flip cup” and amazed at how much alcohol we all consume in such a short period of time. My cousin, you see, is from Iceland. And all his friends there are a bit older 25-30ish. So when they drink, its a lot, but slowly over time. Whereas here, I guess we feel we don’t have time to drink slowly, hence we all down the liquor to get to the bar quicker (hah, that rhymed.)

By the time everyone was ready to head out, me, my cousin and some other girls were more in the mood to just stay home, drink some more, and girl talk. It was a good end to the night.

I ended up not getting to bed til about 3 friday night, resulting in quite a lovely sleep in 🙂

I woke up saturday, around 11, and knew exactlly what I needed to cure my throbbing head:

DSC01940 Oatmeal bagel, butter, sliced banana, later topped with some tropical cottage chesse.

It tasted even better than it looks, and did the trick!!

Waking up so late did require some maneuvering with eating times. I was having my breakfast at a time I would usually be having my morning snack. This is something that 3 weeks ago would have really bothered me and freaked me out, but somehow I was ok with it. I could adjust the times a little bit, and just fit in a little more food into one snack to make up for the missed morning one. Problem solved 🙂

Still feeling the effects of the night before, me and my cousin continued bumming around the house, watching movies, checking facebook, all that good lazy stuff. Around 2, we decided to walk out to my neighbourhood starbucks. Which ended up being a little less than pleasant, as we were attacked with a sudden heavy (and I mean HEAVY) rain storm.
Needless to say we were soaked by the time we got to Starbucks, and even more in need of a hot drink than before.
I enjoyed the usual double tall soy latte, while my cousin got his starbucks order, tall vanilla latte. They don’t have Starbucks in Iceland, and he has loved being able to go so often, and to have his usual order.

Momma was nice enough to save us from the rain, and drove to pick us up. By the time we got back,it was 3 and I figured it would be a good time for lunch 🙂
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Open faced english muffin sandwich with ham, laughing cow cheese and dijon mustard. With the ususal sides of carrots, apple slices, and some orange mango juice

This was deeeelish. More open faced sandwiches will be eaten by me in the next few days. But first wraps! Its been about a week since I have had a proper melty wrap and I am fiending for onee!!!

As the rain continued, we felt even more bummy, and spent the afternoon looking up funny cat videos on youtube. Goodtimes

At around 7 I tucked into this lovely snack DSC01943:

Chocolate Boost and a Nutz Over Chocolate Luna Bar

Around the time I ate this snack, the weather was clearing up, and my brother suggested going to a street jazz festival that was happening downtown. While this sounded fun, it also made me super anxious. All of a sudden I had thoughts of skipping my snack, saving my Boost till after dinner, so that if it was something super unplanned and substantial I could skip the Boost and make it OK.

I quickly snapped out of it, remembering that skipping the boost would only be cheating myself and why not just get it overwith. I repeated the words of my dietician in my head “there is no reason for you to ever miss the supplement, unless you are stranded on a boost-less, clif-less island” and that was certainly not where I was..

So I had the Boost and Luna, and it felt fine (and tasted fantastic!!) I left the situation feeling stronger, and better for having overcome and challenged those irrational thoughts.

Feeling empowered, I headed to the street jazz festival with my brother, his friend and my cousin. It was lots of fun! We strolled the street, grabbed some grub (mr. sub….any guesses on who suggested that?), then went to a bar, where I had some chardonnay.
Weird Mix? Yes. Delicious? Yes yes yes.
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white-wine-glassAt around 11 o clock, I got a text from my friend saying he was going to a Gay Club downtown, and wanted to know if me and my cousin were up to it. My cousin is gay, and he had been talking about wanting to see the gay area and scene in Toronto, so away we went. 🙂

One issue was that going out meant that I might miss my high energy snack (that lovely dessert that you girls see at the end of all my posts) which I knew would be a bad idea calorie wise, especially if I was going to be dancing lots into the night. So to make sure I got in those delicious calories, I grabbed a Banana Cookie LaraBar out of my bag, and nibbled away on our way to the club. And even better? I wasn’t embarrased to eat it in front of my cousin!! I felt totally fine, and I was not in the least bit ashamed. I was doing what I knew was best for me, and he supports me in that!
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After waiting in line for about an hour we got in, and it was crrraaazzzyyy fun. The club was packed, and pumping with awesome clubbing music (techno, lady gaga, obvi some Madonna) My cousin loved it (though he did have to say that Icelandic Gay Clubs were maybe a little better) and as a result we didn’t head home until about 3 am. My cousin picked up some pizza, I got some chocolate milk, and we strolled home  gossiping about all the cute boys in the club, and one in particular who had an eye on my cousin 😉

All in all it was a great weekend, and it doesn’t end there! Tonight I am hosting a potluck dinner as a going away party for my cousin who leaves tomorrow!! 😦 It will be sad, but a great way to conclude his trip, with some good eats and good friends 🙂

His visit has been amazing, fun, terrifying, challenging, frustrating, exhilirating, all at once. There were times it was great, and times it was tough, but at the end of it all I got to spend 2 solid weeks with one of my best friends, and he was able to push me outside of my comfort zone and push me further in my road to recovery. I already feel so much more like a ‘normal’ eater compared to 2 weeks ago. Given, I still have a lot of food issues and anxieties I need to tackle, and my weight still needs to go up up up, but good progress has been made, and I am stoked about that.

So lets call this my official return to blogging yes? I’ll post much more regularly, and comment lots lots lots. I’ve missed it!
So I hope you all are well, and that you have enjoyed these past few summer weeks to the upmost, I know I have 😉

Lots and lots of love,
xx

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Fantastish!

Good Morning and Happy Sunday!

I hope you all had a great and relaxing weekend! I’m sorry about my lack of posting yesterday, I let myself take the day and just recover from friday night.

Friday was really great! It started with a friend coming over some pre drinks, we caught up and split a bottle of Riesling. 🙂 It was really nice to just kick back and enjoy some time with a friend. While it was hard for me at first to not think about the calories in the wine, it became easier to ignore that negative voice with each glass (not surprisingly 😉 ) Feeling a little buzzed we headed out to the bar where the party was. The birthday girl was well drunk, and we all had a great time.

I saw a lot of people who hadn’t seen me in a long time. One of my closest friends had just gotten back from a trip to Europe, and hadn’t seen me since I was at my lowest weight. When she saw me, she teared up a bit, and said I was looking so much better, and was looking a little bit more like my old self. 🙂

It was the best I have felt in a long time. The thought that I could look good has been far from my mind for months, so when people told me I did, it was hard for me to beleive it at first. But then I decided to take the compliment, and feel good about myself.

I had a great time, and left the night with many new plans to meet friends in the next week. Let it be a lesson: that even taking one step out of your shell can be a great leap forward!!

Saturday morning, was not as bad as expected! My head was throbbing a little 😉 but for the most part I was fine. I spent the morning watching trash TV with my mom (amazing hangover cure) but after a few hours we needed to get out of the house. So me, mom and my dad headed downtown and just enjoyed the weather and the bustle of the city. At around 5 I got a text from my friend inviting me to go see Bruno with a group of them.

My immediate reaction? I wanna go, but it interrupts my food schedule, so no.

Then I asked myself, would I really rather spend the night alone and stick exactlly to the food schedule or adjust the timing a little and be with my friends?

I adjusted and went! 🙂

I had an early dinner before the movie, and decided I could have the afternoon snack then instead after the movie. While it was a little anxiety provoking for me, I dealt with it, and got to see my girlies, and quite a hilarious movie.

My thoughts on Bruno? Shocking, but pretty funny 🙂 (My post title is from da film)
Compared with Borat, it was not as funny, but I still laughed quite a lot, and have never said “oh my god” so many times in one sitting, haha. I’m so happy I saw this with friends, and not my parents!! haha

So all in all a great weekend, I felt pretty free from the grips of my eating disorder, and that felt great! Friends are much better company than the ED voice.

So I didn’t photograph all my eats these past two days, but I did photograph some so here they are 🙂

Friday’s Breakfast:
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Oatmeal bagel with butter, slicd banana, tropical cottage cheese (yum) and some coffee.

This was a great breakfast, super yummy and filling. It fueled me through the whole morning 🙂 Which included a starbucks run, an eyebrow wax, and general pampering for the evening ahead.


Friday’s Lunch:

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Whole Wheat Pita with turkey, laughing cow and mustard
, with the usual sides of course.

Looks yummy? yessssss.

Mid Afternoon Fuel:
I was going to skip this snack, because of the calories I was going to be taking in in the alcohol. But then I reminded myself, normal people do not limit their food intake before they drink, so why should I? Hence the thumbs up, it was a snack in the right direction 🙂
Photo 67Smores Luna Bar

Also a quick picture of my new stunnaaaa shades I told ya’ll about. [excuse me pops in the background]

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I wish I had a photo of Friday nights dinner, it was beeaauuutiful. My mom poached some salmon in white wine and lemon juice, and also grilled some asparagus and made a gorgeous salad. It was a classy start to my messy night.

Saturday mornings breakfast was eaten half conciously, hence no photogrpah, but I had some maple oatmeal with 1/2 an english muffin spread with 1 tbsp DCD, and banana-nananana.

Morning Snack looked a little something like this:
dsc01729 A repeat picture? me? never!

…or maybe just this once 🙂

Creamy Vanilla Yogurt, all bran, and just imagine some nanner slices on top.

Ain’t no such thang as too much potassium..i hope.

Lunch was the usual shebang, except a tuna melt! yummmers.
Then I read all your lovely blogs, and pondered doing an entry myself…but then we were off to the downtown, hence no postings 🙂

Before ish dashed off for some super fantastish movie watchings, Bruno, I made this lovely dinner, inspired by a few blogs I like reading:
Photo 72Sol Veggie Burger with mozzarella and ketchup on a whole wheat tortilla, panini’d and pressed. This was DELISH! Burgers on wraps, whodathunkit? But it was awesome, and definetley something I will repeat. I paired it with some steamed veggies, baby carrots, and my lemon lime gatorade.

xtra ketchup obvi on the side 🙂

I packed some kashi crackers along for the movie, and brought along my boost hoping I could have it during the movie, I ended up just having a fresh cold one when I got home instead.

np_chocoAlong with my Boost, I tried a new bar, similar to a LaraBar. It was a Nature Paths Organic Pure Fruit and Nut Bar – Chocolada Walnut flavour. I saw these in the store the other day and decided to be adventurous. It was vveeerrryyyy goood. Although nothing can take the place of larabars in my heart, these are quite similar, delicious, and come in many other flavours. Click here, for more info 🙂

Alright well I am off to enjoy the weather with the fam, we’re doing some gardening apparently. 🙂 Hope you all have a relaxing sunday, and I will be back to regular posting tomorrow.

But before ya’all dash off, make sure to check out Jaime’s fearless and fabulous GIVEAWAY 🙂 looks fantastic, yes?

Lots of love,
xx

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“You can always go, Downtown…”

Gooood Morning, I hope you all had a great start to the week.

Mine was pretty good. As nice as it was to be with my friends this weekend, it felt good to get back to routine a bit, and just enjoy a day to myself 🙂

Breakfast was deeeelish:
DSC01720 Cinnamon Raisin Bagel
, buttered post picture, 1/2 green apple, strawberry cottage cheese (more than pictured, I just put some on the plate for you ladies to seee) and some 1% milk

This was my first time having these cinnamon raisin bagels, and my oh my were they good. For everyone in Canada, these are the Presidents Choice Bleu Menu Cinnamon Raisin Bagels. I highly reccomend them, delicious, and good for you!!

After breakfast I uploaded my pictures and videos from the cottage, blogged,  and then caught up with all of your lovely blogs, and it seems everyone had a great holiday weekend 🙂

After all that time in front of the computer, I needed to get myself out of the house. So got myself prettied up, and walked downtown (only about 10 minutes from my house, our area is great in that way as it is really quiet and feels closed off from the bustle of the city, yet in reality, its just a few blocks away 😉 ) The weather was amazing once again, so I walked slow and just took it all in.

photo-2 Once downtown I grabbed myself a double tall soy latte (are we sensing a pattern here?) and nibbled on this bar that I grabbed before leaving the house.

Kellogs Fruit n Fibre Bar. They don’t sell these in Canada, but I bought a big box of them when I was in Iceland. I know they are not the healthiest for you, methinks there may be some high fructose corn syrup in there. But I really like em’. So whatevvvaaaa.

Of course I also ended up in Whole Foods, where I restocked on some things: deep chocolate vita tops, some clif bars, a mint jocolat bar, yogurt, and some Amy’s instant meals (personal cheese pizza, spinach and feta pocket) I’m looking forward to trying out 🙂 

Are there any Amy’s products you guys reccomend?
I have had the burrito, and I loved that, but I definetley wanna expand on that. There are many a time when an instant meal would come in handy. 🙂 

Then I headed back home with all the yummy loot. Once I got home, and sorted all the stuffs away, I made myself some lunch:
Photo 572 slices Ezekial Bread, with 1 large turkey slice, 1 slice melty plastic cheddar, and some mustard. And as always, 1/2 green apple, 9 kashi TLC crackers, and some lemonade. We were out of carrots, I cried a little.

I didn’t realise until I uploaded the picture, but my outfit yesterday def had a halloweeny feel eh?

Twas a very yummy lunch, it had been a while since I had proper sandwhich bread, and my oh my had I missed it. After lunch my mom said she had to do some grocery shopping downtown, and asked me if I wanted to go along

grocery shopping? downtown (again!?) Obvi I went.

It felt really good to be out of the house so much today, and also spend some more time with the moms. We unfortunately got in a bit of a fight on the way home (shes basically just frustrated with my whole situation (slow weight gain etc), and sometimes that comes out in somewhat unreasonable arguments) While at first I decided to just storm off and walk ahead of her home, about 3 minutes in, I realised I wasn’t achieving anything, and it would just make things worse later. So I sucked it up, went back to her and said I didn’t want to be in a fight with her. I was still mad, but after about 10 minutes the anger passed, and she apoligized for blowing up as well. Crisis averted 🙂

Once we got home I decided to give my bestie a ring. Girlie had just gotten out of work completley exhausted and was headed to the gym to get her sweat on. (Thats one of the things I use to motivate myself, the sooner I get my weight up, the sooner I can begin to be active again and build a healthy relationship with exercise.) For the most part it was just a normal catch up sesh, but then she kind of surprised me by saying “what was wrong at the cottage?” I was definetley surprised by this, because as I told all you girls I had a great time. But I guess she noticed a few of the times I had mini panics about the unplanned food and such, cause she said there were times when she would see me and knew I was not all there, that a lot of me was preoccupied with what was in my head, (people know us much better than we think.) I explained to her the worries I had been having some of the time, but assured her I did have a great time. She was happy to hear that, but kind of upset that I had not talked to her about it, and reminded me to keep being open with her. At the time, I didn’t want to talk to her about it cause i didn’t want to ruin her good time at the cottage, but she said the only thing that really hindered the weekend for her was that she felt I was holding back from her, and that all she really wanted was for me to tell her at the time and let me know what was going on, so she could help me! 

I honestly feel so blessed to have friends that truly care about me, and are really there for me no matter what. I just need to remember to reciprocate. Be as open with them as they are with me, and be more present in their lives, and NOT pull away.  

Feeling resolved I headed down to the kitchen and whipped up a snack:
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1/2 english muffin with 1 tbsp white chocolate wonderful (yum) 1 banana, and a chocolate boost. 

After this snack I decided my hair was lookin a little nasty, and felt I should shower. Enjoying feelin so fresh and so clean clean, I chilled around the house doing pretty much nothin’ until the hunger started to roll around, and I decided to start making some dinner. 

After reading this fabulous blog, I was craving myself a chicken wrap for dinner. So away I went on preparing some chicken for my wrap. However, being the forgetfull girl I am, I left my chicken in the oven tooo long, and the beauty burned. 😦

It was getting too late to wait another half an hour for another chicken breast, so instead I microwaved myself a veggie burger and enjoyed the resulting meal: 

Photo 61 Sol veggie burger with some more melty cheddar cheese, tomato slices, onion, mustard and ketchup on a whole wheat hamburger thin. Obvi it went on the panini grill too. Still lacking in carrots, I had MORE apple slices, some blueberry yogurt, and my fruit punch gatorade on the side. 

After dinner, I watched Kramer vs. Kramer with the parents. Its a great movie from the late 70’s starring a super young Dustin Hoffman and Meryl Streep. The movie basically focuses on a custody hearing between Hoffman and Streep over who should have sole custody of their kid (cutest kid ever by the way) after Streeps character leaves the family with no explanation for 8 months, only to return saying she wants the kid she had left! Craaaaazyy.

All in all it was a pretty good start to the week. Theres not too much planned for this week, which I am actually kind of looking forward too. Just taking it easy and seeing where the week takes me.

A BIG thank you for your supportive comments. Its really nice to know that my blog is being read, and hearing from you girls that I am doing well, is even more affirming, and motivates me to keep getting better! 🙂

Now you know I had to end the day on a sweet note:
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A deep chocolate vita muffintop (microwaved to maximize yumminess), with smores pudding and some chocolate milk. 

A yummy end to the day.

Alright I am off to watch the MJ memorial on TV. Should be pretty epic.

Have a great day girlies!!
xx

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