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A little less conversation..

Happy Tuesday 🙂

Hope all your weeks got off to a great start!! Mine was very nice. Yesterday was my first day to myself in a while (I love my cousin, but sometimes a girl just needs some time on her lonesome 🙂 ) And I just enjoyed the lack of company a bit. But cha know whhaatt? I also forgot to blog!! So hows about a two day re-cap yes?

Sunday was a really lovely, really lazy day.

I started with a lovely breakfast staple:

IMG_0276Eggo FibrePlus Blueberry Waffles topped with banana and tropical cottage cheese. Enjoyed with a nice tall cup of Java.

It was my cousins last full day visiting, so I had thought that we would try and do lots on the last day, (ya know, to end the trip with a BANG.) But alas, there was lots of rain outside, and my cousin was a little exhausted from the gay clubbing the night before. So instead we spent the day just chilling at home, watching some chick flicks (“Blast from the Past”, “Two Weeks Notice”) and just enjoying eachothers company 🙂

After soo much lounging, you all know I needed some snackage to get me through it:

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Vanilla Yogurt with 1/2 cup kashi puffed cereal and a sprinkling of All Bran Buds

Ohh it was yummy. And the perfect sized morning snack 🙂

Staying in also meant I finally had time to do some blogging, which was great. 🙂 I managed to keep the blog a secret for the whole of my cousins visit (snneaaakkyy), though he did stumble upon some food pictures, and seemed a little confused, but he didn’t bother asking. I assume he figured it had something to do with my recovery or something 😉

The stomach started rumbling, so some lunch was made and eaten:
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Whole wheat pita with ham, mozzarella, tomato slices and dijon mustard.
Along with some Kashi TLC Crackers, apple slices, baby carrots and some unpictured orange mango juice.

After seeing me eat these for a week, my cousin decided he wanted to try making one. Half way through his mozzarella turkey melt, he went off to Subway for a 12″ BMT. I guess once you find something you like, you stick with it yeah?

Which is why I will be sticking close by my Panini grill 🙂

As I told you all, we had planned on hosting a potluck dinner that night. But the combination of the rain, and the fact that Sunday usually ends up being hangover-city for my friends, not as many people were able to attend as we had expected. So we decided to just continue down the same lazy path for the day and cancel the potluck. While my cousin was bummed to not be able to say bye to everyone properly, some girls dropped by to say bye throughout the evening, and others sent their goodbyes to him in texts 🙂 He was feeling the love.

Some time later more snack-age happened:

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Vanilla Boost, 1/2 english muffin with laughing cow cheese and diced tomato

This is quickly becoming a favourite snack. Quick and absolutely delicious!

Because it was my cousins last night, and there was no potluck dinner going down, we decided to go out for dinner. So me, my mom, my dad, my cousin and another guest we had visiting from Sweden (we really were a full house last week) went to dinner at an Italian place downtown.

I didn’t bring my camera, as I was more focused on celebrating my cousins visit, but picture this dinnaaahh:

whole wheat bread slice with butter, 1 tomato slice with boccocini as an appetizer (we were sharing) and as a main I had a grilled salmon fillet, with some type of butter sauce, boiled potatoes and green beans.

Now to be truthful, the butter sauce did freak me out a bit. Although I include fats in all my meals (butter, olive oil etc) this uncontrolled, unknown amount of melted butter poured over my fillet caused some panic. I tried my best to just enjoy the added flavour, and not let the “calories” hinder my meal. It was tough, but I did my best.

When these situations arise, I try to just think “how would a normal person react to this situation?” In this case, they would probably just indulge in the great flavours of this dish, they would maybe even dip some of the fish in the extra butter sauce on the plate!! So should I be scared or nervous? No!!

After dinner we headed back home, and spent the rest of the evening on the back porch, telling jokes and recapping his trip. It was a really lovely end to a lazy day 🙂

This made the day even sweeter:

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Mini So Delicious Neapolitan Ice cream Sandwich (these are sooo good, my gosh!) with some vanilla pudding and chocolate milk 😉

I am definetley planning on trying more of the So Delicious coconut milk ice cream products, cause this one, wins lots and lots of prizes in my books.

Then Came Monday:

I woke up bright and early (around 6:30) to get my cousin up, and ready to head to the airport. I made him a nice goodbye breakfast on the go, egg mcmuffin, with 1 scrambled egg, 1 slice mozzarella and keettcchup, with a sliced green apple on the side.

For my breakie: I made a whole wheat pita with 1 tbsp peanut butter and a whole naner sliced up. I put that baby in the panini grill, then wrapped it in some paper towel and enjoyed it on the car ride to the airport. Yummmy on the go 🙂 No photo though, sorry girls!!

So my cousin set off for Iceland well fed, and with little issue at the airport. I was really sad to see him go. We had quite a fun 2 weeks, but at the same time I think we were both ready for a bit of a break. There is only so much time you can spend with someone before they start to drive you a little crazy, and 12 days was the perfect dosage, not too much and not too little 🙂

It also was not too hard to say bye to him, because I am headed to Iceland for 6 days next week 🙂 I have already been once this summer for about 2 weeks. But this time we are going to a family reunion thats going down at the beginning of August. Hence I will be reunited with my cousin in no time. 😉

After dropping my cousin off at the airport, me and the momma drove around the city a bit, she stopped off at Starbucks and picked up a nonfat iced latte and a feta spinach wrap for herself. Mommas review? Latte was delicious, feta wrap was…suspicious…
She ended up giving up on the wrap about half way through.

I didn’t have anything, cause I had this lovely snack waiting for me at home:
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Peanut Toffee Buzz Clif and 1% Milk

This is becoming one of my favourite flavours. Its up there with the maple nut clif. I have yet to try the white chocolate macadamia nut clif which I am sure could probably trump both from what I hear. Some day..some dayy..

After some more lounging with my momma I made a yuuummmyyy lunch:

IMG_0341Two slices rye bread with ham, melty cheddar cheese, tomato slices and dijon mustard – panini grilled. Along with some apple slices, baby carrots, Kashi TLC Crackers which were dipped in 1 tbsp salmon cream cheese (see it there?? in the corner, you see it? yum.) all washed down with some orange mango juice.

I had not had rye bread in sooooooo long, so I was stoked when we picked some up at the store the other day.  It had been too long friends, too long. It was an absolutely delicious sandwich. The bread was so soft, and yet crispy at the same time from the panini grilling. Perfection.

As I said, I decided to just enjoy some time on my own, and spent the rest of the day watching sit coms with my momma, checking facebook, walking around my neighbourhood etc. It was a lovely, and exactlly what I needed yesterday – being that it was the first day to myself in a while. So I am sorry for the lack of posting yesterday, I was just so busy indulging in my solitude. :p

I also indulged in this snack:
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Tropical Cottage Cheese, with 1/3 cup of all bran buds.
I was also unable to finish all of my clif bar in the morning (was a little full), so I crumbled what was left of it into the cottage cheese as well, and as a cherry on top?
A peanut butter puffin. Yumms. Washed down with some vanilla soy milk.

This snack was delicious! Definetley a repeat sometime soon, but probably better to have it when dinner is far off, cause the protein from the cottage cheese and the clif made me stuufffeeeddd.
But ya’ll know that didn’t stop me from going out for some lovely sushi with the family 🙂

Those of you who have been reading my blog for a while can probably guess what I got, is it lame I always order the same thing? Probably yes. But its just so gosh darn goooooood.

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Seaweed salad and a california roll (heart, love, kisses, hugs)

After dinner me and the fam headed over to the movies to see “500 days of Summer”

I loved this movie!! It was romantic, funny, sad, artistic, all wrapped up into one. Also the music in it was soo great. I will for suree be picking up the soundtrack sometime sooon. The fam loved it too, so girlies, if your looking for a film for ce soir? this is thee one 🙂

After the movie, me, my mom and my brother decided to walk home (about 10 minutes) cause the summer night weather was too good to pass up.

All in all it was another lovely day (hope this pattern continues 😉 ), and it was great to spend some quality time with the fam after the constant craziness of my cousins visit.

Alright well this post is long long long, so I’m gonna end it here. I have lots to tell you guys from happenings today, but I’ll save them goodies for tomorrows post!

Ooops, EDIT:
Now how could I have forgotten to include last night dessert?

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Mini Vanilla Chocolate Hagen Dazs Bar with Chocolate Milk

My oh my, it had been toooooo long since my last hagen dazs. I found mini versions in the store the other day and was sooo stoked. I could have my hagen daz fill, without actually becoming too full! win win win.

Love, as always
xx

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Bad News…

Well it’s Hump Day!

And unfortunatley I’m in a little bit of a slump (hah, witty)
Last night my parents went out to dinner together, and when they got back I could tell something was wrong. My dad didnt talk to me, or look me in the eye, and my mom was being SUPER nice. Too Nice.

About an hour later, I got to talking to my mom. And..it wasn’t good. It turned out that over dinner my dad told her that he had e-mailed my school, and my landlord (I was renting a house with 4 other girls next year) and told both that I would not be returning for school and asked for instructions on how to delay my courses/rent.  

At first I couldn’t speak. I literally had no words. This was something my dad had been kind of threatening if my weight didn’t go up more, soon. But it was something he was going to talk to me about first. And then he just did it anyway. I felt betrayed.

I have been working so hard, and going back to school has been my main motivation, and now it seems that has all gone away. 

I know my housemates are going to be annoyed because now they have to find someone else to take the room, and I know that everyone at school is going to know why I am not there. I know they are going to be talking about how I couldnt come back because I was still sick. And whats worse, and what is scaring me right now, is that while the first few months people will notice I’m not there, soon they will get used to not having me around, and maybe soon I won’t be missed. And even if I do get to go back next fall, I feel like it will all be so different. I will be a year behind everyone else, and everyone will know why I had to take a year off. I feel so ashamed. and gosh, girls, I just feel so sad. 

A part of me feels all my hard work has gone to waste. But the deepest part of me knows that is wrong. The progress I have made still counts. And I need to hold onto that right now, and not go the other direction, because really that won’t make things any better. I am going to keep gaining, and keep moving forward. The sooner my weight goes up, the sooner I can get back to LIFE!

Who knows, maybe I can go back in January, and only be half a term behind.

Its just so frustrating to me because I haven’t been weighed since I started this new meal plan last week. I may very well have gained, and my dad is just assuming the worst!!!

I’m seeing my therapist today, and maybe he will be able to help me sort through this. But yeah, I’m not feeling so fantastic right now. 

My best friends having a BBQ tonight, so I’m hoping that will lift my spirits a little. It will be nice to see friends, and get away from the parents and “reality” of it all for a bit.

“ahh yesterday…all my troubles seemed so far awayyyy..”

Breakfast:
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1 egg scrambled, 1 laughing cow wedge on an english muffin, panini’d to perfection.
1 banana sliced up, and some unpictured Java.

I was gonna have the blueberry yogurt, but was feeling kind of full, so decided to have some dairy lataaaa.

After Breakfast, my mom invited me on an outing to Ikea, and I happily obliged. Being Swedish, Ikea is the closest thing we have to our Scandinavian roots here in Canada, and so we pay them a patriotic visit from time to time 🙂 
One of my favourite things about Ikea, are their Swedish Meatballs,
 my oh myy, I used to always get the managers special portion (oh you know the one, with like 20 meatballs!?) which I would have done the yesterday had I not just eaten my lovely breakfast sandwich. We did however walk by the Ikea cafe, where I saw this somewhat shocking poster.
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A whole breakfast like that for ONE DOLLA!?

Is anyone else concerned with what the food is made of when they sell it for a single buck?

Crazy ikea corporation swedish folk.

 

After roaming around Ikea for a bit, we didn’t find much of anything, so we decided to just head home, but we did manage to pick up some daim mini bites (ahhhmazzzinngg chocolate, I can only ever find them  in Ikea) I was stoked.

Once we got home, I got to snackin’
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Creamy Vanilla Yogurt and a crumbeled up Fruit n Fibre Bar. Yum Yum Yum.

While eating, I did my blogging for the day, and some facebook chattin/creepin. 

Then me and my mom realised that the Micheal Jackson Memorial was on TV! 

We watched for a bit, pretty huge event eh? I thought it was pretty well done, and nice that his life could be celebrated like that. I do have to say though, that I find it hard to forget that he may or may not have violated some young kids…so I still feel kind of iffy about the guy. 😦

Some time later lunch was eaten, but i guess I was pretty hungry, cause I totally forgot to take a picture!! It was pretty standard though, turkey, laughing cow cheese, tomato and mustard on a whole wheat pita, with some apple slices, kashi crackers 1tbsp cream cheese aaaand some lovely mango orange juice. Yum. 
 
After lunch my brother got home from work and suggested we go for a bike ride (which I made sure was quick and light no worries 😉 )

We just biked around my neighbourhood and it was really nice to be out of the house in the nice weather, and doing a bit of exercise!! I definetley noticed that my muscles were a little weaker from not having exercised in soooooo long. But I understand that my body needs a rest, and I’m happy to give it them time it needs. I’m just looking forward to building up that strength again some day 🙂

After the bike ride I was feeling kind of  peckish (sp?) 

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Banana and Butter on a slice of ezekial toast, which I paired with a tropical cottage cheese, and a Strawberry Boost.

Jenna left me a comment the other day saying that Strawberry was the best Boost flavour, so I made sure to pick some up, and my oh my was she ever right. It was delisshh!!

Sometime after this snack my parents got back from dinner, and thats when the day took a pretty sharp turn from fine to terrible. My mom, seeing I was upset took me out for a bit, which was nice. I definetley did not want to be in the house with my dad at that point.

A part of me does think that a year off would be good for me, to give me time to truly get completly better. But I wish it could have been MY decision, not my Dad’s. Its my life, and right now it doesn’t seem I have much say in it 😦

I needed some cheering up, so I treated myself to a dinner fit for a King Queen.

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The lightings a little off, but this beauty was a Salmon Burger Pattie, brushed with maple teriyaki sauce (from the barefoot contessa, love that biddy) brown rice, spinach and steamed veggies accompanied by a laughing cow cheese wedge, apple slices, and some almond milk 🙂
This was super yummy, satisfying and filling. It was also a step in the right direction. 

Not going back to school is a bit of a set back, but Im not going to give up now on getting better. I am NEVER going to go back to restricting. 

Cause (and the wit continues) it has really only restricted my freedom in life!!

The Cherry on Top:

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Deep chocolate vitamuffin top, with vanilla pudding, chocolate milk, aaaannnnddd a couple daim bites. (yum!)

 

 
Well I am off to get myself ready for some BBQ action, I just got back from my therapist, and shiz was good, but I’ll leave that for another post, cause this one is LLOOONNNGGG.

Love you all! Stay Strong!! I know I’m gonna try!
xx

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New In Town

Goood Morning All!
I hope you all had a lovely wednesday, mine was pretty good 🙂

I woke up kinda late, so I immediately fixed myself a loverly breakfast:

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Egg McMuffin: english muffin with one scrambeled egg and a slice of mozzarella. Accompanied by 1/2 a golden delicious, leftover egg, and some ketchup. Was gonna have the soy milk, but opted for some espresso after the picture was taken 🙂

Then it was straight on to cleaning. Me and my parents cleaned the entire house yesterday, it was craziness. And it was all because my brother was arriving yesterday from Iceland. For some reason whenever a family member is arriving, or returning from a trip, its like an expectation of our family that the house be perfectly clean. Its kind of hilarious, especilly since I’m sure my brother would barely notice a difference, but its nice I guess to make an effort. 🙂

Around 11 my best friend called me, and asked if I would go with her to buy some breakfast (she eats late) which I was def up for, so biddy came over, and off we went. Within 5 minuts of being in her car, she asked how I was, why we hadnt talked in so long (2 days..which is a long time for us haha) and whether I had anything I wanted to talk about. This immediately reminded me of what my therapist had been telling me about being more open with my closest friends (see last post) and so I was happy that the oppourtunity was presenting itself so quickly. I tried my best to explain my behaviour and situation to her:  I told her that even though I wanted to talk to her so many times about what was going on, and I wanted to tell her everything, my fear of being a nuisance, or bringing down the mood of the chill sesh (dont know where that term came from) always kept me from letting her in. I also apoligized for being so absent from her life, I don’t know about you girls, but I definetley isolate myslef quite a bit. It just feels safer to stay home with my parents and the food I know, where I have control, than to go out with friends and just live life unplanned. I explained that this was something i was going to work on changing, and even better, she said she would help me do that! She also told me that it only ever made her happy when we talked about it, because it made her relived to know what was going on with me, to hear I was working on getting better, and made her feel she could help me in some way. We ended up having a really good talk, and both opened up to eachother, and a lot of the tension that had been underlying in our relationship was lifted. After the heavy talk, she came back to my house and had her breakfast, while I had a snack, and we just talked and hung out like old times, it really felt great. Girlies, if you have a friend you are holding back from, for fear that they don’t want to hear about your ED, or because you don’t want to talk about it yourself, let that person in. I can tell you now from experience, theres no better feeling than reconnecting with a friend you were beginning to distance yourself from. I think when we stop caring about ourselves, its easy to forget that other people still do care about us. Being alone ain’t no fun, friends are good for the soul.

DSC01683I didn’t photograph my snack with my friend, no one knows about this bloggie, except for my mom, but here’s what snack consisted of, a creamy vanilla yogurt and a to go pack of all bran buds. Love me some fibre.

The rest of the day was continued mmaaaaaddd cleaning. I took a break from my windex and cloth around 2 for some lunchie:

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My photographing skills clearly still need some work, but the pita was filled with a laughing cow cheese wedge and a large slice of turkey and some mustard. Then some carrots, the other 1/2 of my golden delicious apple, Kashi TLC Crackers and mango juice.

I ate my lunch while watching an episode of Frasier. I absolutely love old sitcoms, I could rewatch episodes of seinfeld or frasier anyday. So much better than all this new reality TV bussiness…not that I don’t love me some housewives of …jon and kate plus 8 or paris’s new BFF now and again. haha

Something kind of challenging for me today was implementing an increase to my meal plan. I started with a new dietitan on Monday, who said I should add either a boost or a clif bar everyday, to up them cals just a lil more 😉

Photo 998She told me to have it with lunch, which I had planned on doing, but it ended up being a bit too overwhelming for me, so I waited 2 hours, and then I got down to bussiness. I lovelovelove clif bars, so for my first day of the new meal plan, I thought I would start with something I truly enjoy. Maple Nut, which is my favourite flavour so far, and some vanilla soy milk.

As far as clifs go I have tried maple nut, toffee peanut buzz, carrot cake, chocolate chip and chocolate chip peanut crunch. My fav has always been maple nut, with chocolate chip peanut crunch in a close second. Any flavours you girls reccomend? I am dying to try the WCM clif, but noooo dice, seeing as they aren’t sold here in Canada. lameeeo.

After the clif, I went for a quick walk with my dad in the lovely canada day weather. When we got back we found out that our neighbour had decided to throw a Canada Day street party, and was setting up BBQ’s and a cooler full of brewski’s. So suddenly we had Canada Day plans, which was great 🙂

I hung out with my neighbours, which was great cause I hadn’t seen them all in a long time and we all used to be super close. There about 5 of us on the street all around the same age, and growing up we literally spent everyday together. Because my brother is a whole 12 years older than me he moved out for school around when I was 7, so having these other kids on the street was great for me. They were like the siblings I never had 🙂

At around 7 I had to scurry off quickly to tuck into this snack: 1/2 an english muffin, with some banana and a good amount of PB (maybe?) washed down with some mo’ vanilla soy milk.

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So I am sticking to this peanut butter challenge, but I need some help from you girls, does that amount of PB seem decent?
Then it was back to the street party. Which was lots of fun. About half way through the evening, my brother arrived!! WEEE!! It was great to have him back. My family always feels complete when he is around..wonder why, haha. So I chilled with him and my neighbours and enjoyed the BBQ, along with some BBQ delights:

DSC01691Salmon Burger on a whole wheat pita, with a laughing cow cheese wedge, ketchup, and some carrots. (The nice thing about a street party..your own condiments are just steps away..

Once again, I will take some food photography classes, cause that shit looks naaassty.

Well once again I feel like this post may be dragging on, so I’m gonna wrap it up soon. All in all it was a great day. I really stuck to my meal plan, aimplemented the supplement increase with little anxiety, reconnected with my best friend, chilled with the my childhood besties, and got my brother back. An excellent start to July, and a great Canada day.

So I’ll finish off with desert, and a song ya’ll should give a listen to. I used its title as the name of my post because 1. I am new in this blogging town, 2. my brother just got back to town, and 3. my best friend can absolutely not get this song out of her head. Its a goodie. New in Town <—click it

DSC01694Chocolate pudding, with 2 mini soft chocolate chip cookies, and some chocolate milk. 🙂

Oh and just a quick note about my eats. I don’t think I am gonna post everything I eat in a day always, but just for these first few posts I will, cause they kinda give my posts direction, and also because I am trying to make myself come to terms with the amount of food I am eating, and accept that its what I need to get better. I am also posting all of my eats right now, because I remember reading blogs, and seeing what other girls were eating, and realising that I was not alone in having to eat a lot really helped me to stick to my meal plan, and stay motivated. 🙂

So, if your reading this, and your going through a meal plan situation like me. We need it girlies!! It will make us better! And instead of resisting it, lets enjoy it! Like my best friend said to me yesterday, she would trade my meal plan with what she eats anyday!

Hope you all have a great day!
Lots of Love!

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