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One Long Weekend

Happy Civic Holiday!

I’m not sure if this is also in the states, but in Canada, its a civic holiday today, so its a looong weekend 🙂 

I’m sorry I haven’t been posting too regularly, things have just been super busy. I have been spending lots of time with family, and friends, wich is exactlly what I have been needing. The meal plan has been going well mostly, though I think the change is still affecting me a bit 😉

In all the craziness, I have been able to photograph most of my eats, so hows about a quick weekend recap yes?

Friday

Breakfast:
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Whole wheat pita stuffed with 1 scrambled egg, diced tomato and 1 slice melty cheddar cheese. With some sliced apple and ketchup on the side 🙂

 

Lunch:
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Black Forrest Ham, laughing cow cheese, tomato and dijon mustard on 2 slices rye bread.
Carrots and Orange Mango Juice on the side. 
 

 

As you may notice, there is a lot of salt on top of the sandwich and on the side. I know its not good for me, but I use A LOT of salt. At almost every meal. I kinda just feel like food is tasteless without a good salting.

Is there a condiment/topping you guys use a lot (or maybe too much) of? Any other salters out there?

After this lunch I headed down to a historic district in my city with my mom. Its an old brewery, and many of the old buildings have been converted into new stores and restaurants. Its a great place to go on a sunny day, when you just wanna browse and be in a nice atomosphere. After some browsing, momma started getting hungry for some lunch, so we sat down at one of the restaurants there: 

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Mommas Lunch: House baguette with white bean hummus

After her lunch, we walked around the area a bit more which is when I saw this amazingness:

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That takes some skill! There was a whole series of pictures like this, as well as an Andy Warhol portrait of Marilyn Monroe.

I can barely solve a rubix cube, let alone use them to recreate art!!

 

When I got home this snack was throughly enjoyed:
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Quaker Brown Sugar Cinnamon oatmeal with 1 sliced banana and a tbsp of Dark Chocolate Dreams. Vanilla Boost too. 🙂

 This snack gave me all the fuel I needed to write that loooonnnggg post, and do some blog reading.

At around 9, I headed out to Sushi with my brother! Yay!!

We tried out a new sushi place close to the theatre we were going too. I won’t lie, the sushi place was a little sketch, it was empty, it smelled a little bad, but we were in neeed of some sushi, so we decided to take our chances. 

 I had some miso soup and a california roll.  And actually it tasted pretty damn good. Will we go there again? no, were we well fed? yes!

So then we were off to the movies where we saw “Moon”

 Its a somewhat odd sci-fi movie with the guy Drew Barrymore hooks up with in Charlie’s Angels, haha. I am usually not one for sci-fi movies, or movies about space. But oddly enough I really liked it! Its definetley not a movie that will cheer you up, its one of those movies that makes you realise that things kind of suck, haha, but a good quality film nonetheless.

While in the theatre I had an Envirokidz Peanut Butter Bar

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This was my attempt to get in both my 3 choice evening snack and high energy serving. I decided I would have this granola bar in the theatre, and then have my high energy at home, along with my chocolate milk, which I would usually have had with this bar. 

The plan went swimmingly and this was consumed when I got home:
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Mini So Delicious Ice Cream Sammie, with vanilla pudding, and chocolate milk. oohh and a caramilk chocolate square as well. 

It had been way to long since my last caramilk. I have a whole bag of these mini bites, so I think I will be adding them to my high energies now and again, just for that added yumminess. 🙂

Saturday

Breakfast:
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Banana Bonanza: Thomas Multigrain English Muffin with 1 tbsp Maranatha Peanut Butter, 1 tbsp strawberry cream cheese and a huuugggee sliced banana. Java alongside.

As you can guess from the name of my blog, this breakfast was kind of a dream come true.

Lunch:

IMG_03612 slices pumpernickel bread with 2 slices Black Forrest Ham, laughing cow cheese wedge, tomato slices, and dijon mustard. Panini grilled, and then dipped in 1 tbsp ketchup on the side. As well as a sliced green apple and some unpictured orange mango juice.

After this lunch, I went downtown with my brother, where we browsed some shops and checked out an up and coming area in my city, that has a really artsy alternative vibe. The weather was fantastic, and it was really refreshing to explore a new part of the city.

Even more refreshing was this snack:
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Strawberry fro-yo with blueberries

This was something my dietician had asked me to do, have a snack out. And while my anxiety level was a bit high right before, as soon as I had the first bite that all melted away. This was absolutley delicious. My brother got one as well. And about 20 minutes later, he got a second one!!

Needless to say, we have planned for many more fro-yo outings. 

After all our walking and exploring downtown, me and my brother wanted to just stay in and take it easy. We also got lazy with dinner preparation, both of us turned to Amy’s Products to save the day. 

My brother heated up Amy’s Margherita Pizza, which he said was deeelish.

Whereas I heated up an old favourite:

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Amy’s Black Bean Burrito with laughing cow cheese, steamed veggies and an orange mango juice. Ketchup for some dip-age to.

Then some dessert:
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 Strawberry Yogurt and some Annie’s Honey Graham Bunnies, as well as the Boost I missed earlier in the day when I was downtown. 

After all this chow, me and my brother settled our stomachs while watching an old 80’s comedy called “Spies Like Us” with Dan Akroyd and Chevy Chase. I laughed myself silly, it was a great movie. There are so many great old movies you never think to watch, just cause there is always something new to see, but every once in a while, its nice to watch some classics. 

Then it was time for my evening snack:
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Cashew Cookie LaraBar and Soy Milk (which I frothed afterwards, mmm like a latte minus the coffee) Twas the perfect evening pre-bed snack.

I am thinking about talking with my dietician about moving the high energy to maybe after lunch or something, because I am finding it a bit overwhelming to have it after dinner, as well as an evening snack. But then again that may just be because my dinners always end up being so late, anyway we will see what happens with that 🙂

Sunday:

I slept in quite a bit, I guess I had been somewhat lacking in sleeping hours, so feeling well rested, I made an Adventurous breakfast:
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I had allowed myself to become scared of pancakes for some ridiculous reason, and on Sunday, I decided the only way to shatter that fear, would be to enjoy some pancakes.

 Aunt Jemima’s Buttermilk Pancakes with 1 sliced banana, 100g vanilla yogurt and some java.

Ain’t it pretty? And it was super yummy! I am defintley no longer afraid of pancakes. In fact after breakfast I began thinking up new ways to try the pancake. Maybe by making banana pancakes, and instead of two small ones, make one big one?

Mmm, excited to try those soooooon.

If you girls are holding back from trying something new, or having something you are wanting, because you are scared. Try and Just do it! 

I promise the scariest moment is always in the 20 seconds before you do it, and then I PROMISE all that anxiety will melt away as you allow yourself to enjoy something your brain had convinced you you weren’t allowed to enjoy 😉

After breakfast, my bestie called me and asked if she could come over and chill a bit before her shift, and I told the biddy to head on over.

It was really nice to see her again, and just catch up on the weekends activities. I unfortunately did not see much of her on the weekend, cause the girlie has started a new job, that includes a lot more weekend hours. boooo. 

After some catching up, we headed out to a health food store near my house, where the girl picked up some cleanse pills, while I grabbed some much needed Luna Bars, LaraBars, and more mini So Delicious Ice Cream Sammies.

Once we got back to my house, she found out that one of her friends was able to cover her shift, so she could have the day off! Weee!! To celebrate we made some lunch:
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2 slices pumpernickel bread with 2 slices deli chicken breast, laughing cow cheese, tomato slices, dijon mustard, baby carrots, ketchup and salt salt salt salt salt. 

 This has become my go to sandwich as of late, its just so yummy and filling, I can’t bring myself to change it up. My friend had pretty much the same thing, except in an ezekial wrap. 

Excited by her sudden freedom we brainstormed on things to do. A few ideas were tossed around, including a trip to Costco. 

 However, we decided to go for a short trip to the park to swing on the kiddie swings, before heading to a day showing of “The Ugly Truth”

(I go to a lot of movies eh?)

 I actually really liked it! I laughed really hard, and thoroughly enjoyed myself. 

 

So to review:

1. “Moon” – good to go see if you are feeling deep and in need of some confusion

2. “Spies Like Us” – a great 80’s comedy classic

3. “The Ugly Truth” – Really perfect chick flick, go see it with some of your best girlies, and it will be a good time 🙂
 

After the movie, me and the bestie parted ways, as I had to head home have a snack and get myself ready to go out for a reunion dinner with some friends. You see one of my friends moved to the other side of Canada for school, and ended up staying out there for the summer. So yesterday she came back, after 8 months of being away!! Needless to say, I was really exicted to see the girl.

Snack:
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Repeat picture 🙂
Whole Wheat Bread with laughing cow cheese, tomato slices and a Vanilla Boost

This was delicious as always, and served as the perfect appetizer for the dinner I was off to. 

I was so happy to see my friend again, 8 months is way to long to not see or talk to a friend. She looked really good, and happy and it was great to all catch up over a great meal. 

We went to a great thai place in the heart of the clubbing district.  

I ordered the Teriyaki Glazed Grilled Salmon with Rice and Steamed Veggies. I also had a glass of chardonnay, and a beer back at my friends house 🙂

No pictures girls, sorry! But It was delicious. When Dessert time came around I had promised myself I would order dessert, and challenge myself with that! But alas, I freaked myself out a bit, and ended up not ordering anything. I was kind of upset with myself, but you can’t win em’ all. I have just decided that because of that little slip up, the next time I am out to dinner, I will order a dessert, and enjoy it! Cause if the pancakes were any indicator, food is never something to be feared!!

To make up for the missed dessert and such I tucked into this snack when I got home:
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Chocolate Chip Peanut Crunch Clif and some Chocolate Milk (which tasted as decadent as that picture looks) 

All in all it was a great weekend. I was able to go to sushi with my brother, and stick to the meal plan, I was able to spend some time with my best friend, and go to dinner with an old friend and stick to the plan then as well.

I hope all your weekends were relaxing and enjoyable. I can’t wait to read up on them and comment away 🙂

Also, thank you all for your kind comments on my last post. I loved each and every one, and its definetley nice to know I am not alone in struggling with a few things. Lets all just try our best to not be so hard on ourselves, allow ourselves to enjoy the little joys in life, and not let silly anxieties hold us back! 

Hope you all have a great start to the week!!
xx

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Twas A Crazy Fortnight

Ok, so NOW I am back to normal blogging.. 😉

I am so sorry for my absence!! Although things have been a little less crazy these past few days, I still haven’t been able to find the time to sit down and blog till now. I have been reading up on you girls though, and will do some proper commenting later 🙂

So, I think we may have overwhelmed my cousin the first week with all the things we did, cause these past few days when I ask him what he wants to do the answer is usually along the lines of:

“stay in and take it easy”

So these past few days we have mostly just bummed around the house while he plays with his new MacBook, except for the occasional trip downtown to do some shop browsing. I did not mind the reduced activity at all – I think I also needed a bit of a break from hosting and sightseeing myself. 😉

Here are the few photographed eats from the past few days:
DSC01916Mocha Boost.
This came in a variety pack, so there was only one. I hope they start making 6 packs of this though cause it was yummmeehh!

DSC01926Snack: English muffin with laughin’ cow cheese, and diced tomato. Some vanilla Boost alongside.
DSC01919A lovely dessert: Aero Caramel Bar and Chocolate Milk

We did have quite the crazy weekend though. On friday we hosted a pre drink at my house which was lots of fun! All the girls came as well as some guy friends from school. My cousin was soooo intrigued by “flip cup” and amazed at how much alcohol we all consume in such a short period of time. My cousin, you see, is from Iceland. And all his friends there are a bit older 25-30ish. So when they drink, its a lot, but slowly over time. Whereas here, I guess we feel we don’t have time to drink slowly, hence we all down the liquor to get to the bar quicker (hah, that rhymed.)

By the time everyone was ready to head out, me, my cousin and some other girls were more in the mood to just stay home, drink some more, and girl talk. It was a good end to the night.

I ended up not getting to bed til about 3 friday night, resulting in quite a lovely sleep in 🙂

I woke up saturday, around 11, and knew exactlly what I needed to cure my throbbing head:

DSC01940 Oatmeal bagel, butter, sliced banana, later topped with some tropical cottage chesse.

It tasted even better than it looks, and did the trick!!

Waking up so late did require some maneuvering with eating times. I was having my breakfast at a time I would usually be having my morning snack. This is something that 3 weeks ago would have really bothered me and freaked me out, but somehow I was ok with it. I could adjust the times a little bit, and just fit in a little more food into one snack to make up for the missed morning one. Problem solved 🙂

Still feeling the effects of the night before, me and my cousin continued bumming around the house, watching movies, checking facebook, all that good lazy stuff. Around 2, we decided to walk out to my neighbourhood starbucks. Which ended up being a little less than pleasant, as we were attacked with a sudden heavy (and I mean HEAVY) rain storm.
Needless to say we were soaked by the time we got to Starbucks, and even more in need of a hot drink than before.
I enjoyed the usual double tall soy latte, while my cousin got his starbucks order, tall vanilla latte. They don’t have Starbucks in Iceland, and he has loved being able to go so often, and to have his usual order.

Momma was nice enough to save us from the rain, and drove to pick us up. By the time we got back,it was 3 and I figured it would be a good time for lunch 🙂
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Open faced english muffin sandwich with ham, laughing cow cheese and dijon mustard. With the ususal sides of carrots, apple slices, and some orange mango juice

This was deeeelish. More open faced sandwiches will be eaten by me in the next few days. But first wraps! Its been about a week since I have had a proper melty wrap and I am fiending for onee!!!

As the rain continued, we felt even more bummy, and spent the afternoon looking up funny cat videos on youtube. Goodtimes

At around 7 I tucked into this lovely snack DSC01943:

Chocolate Boost and a Nutz Over Chocolate Luna Bar

Around the time I ate this snack, the weather was clearing up, and my brother suggested going to a street jazz festival that was happening downtown. While this sounded fun, it also made me super anxious. All of a sudden I had thoughts of skipping my snack, saving my Boost till after dinner, so that if it was something super unplanned and substantial I could skip the Boost and make it OK.

I quickly snapped out of it, remembering that skipping the boost would only be cheating myself and why not just get it overwith. I repeated the words of my dietician in my head “there is no reason for you to ever miss the supplement, unless you are stranded on a boost-less, clif-less island” and that was certainly not where I was..

So I had the Boost and Luna, and it felt fine (and tasted fantastic!!) I left the situation feeling stronger, and better for having overcome and challenged those irrational thoughts.

Feeling empowered, I headed to the street jazz festival with my brother, his friend and my cousin. It was lots of fun! We strolled the street, grabbed some grub (mr. sub….any guesses on who suggested that?), then went to a bar, where I had some chardonnay.
Weird Mix? Yes. Delicious? Yes yes yes.
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white-wine-glassAt around 11 o clock, I got a text from my friend saying he was going to a Gay Club downtown, and wanted to know if me and my cousin were up to it. My cousin is gay, and he had been talking about wanting to see the gay area and scene in Toronto, so away we went. 🙂

One issue was that going out meant that I might miss my high energy snack (that lovely dessert that you girls see at the end of all my posts) which I knew would be a bad idea calorie wise, especially if I was going to be dancing lots into the night. So to make sure I got in those delicious calories, I grabbed a Banana Cookie LaraBar out of my bag, and nibbled away on our way to the club. And even better? I wasn’t embarrased to eat it in front of my cousin!! I felt totally fine, and I was not in the least bit ashamed. I was doing what I knew was best for me, and he supports me in that!
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After waiting in line for about an hour we got in, and it was crrraaazzzyyy fun. The club was packed, and pumping with awesome clubbing music (techno, lady gaga, obvi some Madonna) My cousin loved it (though he did have to say that Icelandic Gay Clubs were maybe a little better) and as a result we didn’t head home until about 3 am. My cousin picked up some pizza, I got some chocolate milk, and we strolled home  gossiping about all the cute boys in the club, and one in particular who had an eye on my cousin 😉

All in all it was a great weekend, and it doesn’t end there! Tonight I am hosting a potluck dinner as a going away party for my cousin who leaves tomorrow!! 😦 It will be sad, but a great way to conclude his trip, with some good eats and good friends 🙂

His visit has been amazing, fun, terrifying, challenging, frustrating, exhilirating, all at once. There were times it was great, and times it was tough, but at the end of it all I got to spend 2 solid weeks with one of my best friends, and he was able to push me outside of my comfort zone and push me further in my road to recovery. I already feel so much more like a ‘normal’ eater compared to 2 weeks ago. Given, I still have a lot of food issues and anxieties I need to tackle, and my weight still needs to go up up up, but good progress has been made, and I am stoked about that.

So lets call this my official return to blogging yes? I’ll post much more regularly, and comment lots lots lots. I’ve missed it!
So I hope you all are well, and that you have enjoyed these past few summer weeks to the upmost, I know I have 😉

Lots and lots of love,
xx

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Fantastish!

Good Morning and Happy Sunday!

I hope you all had a great and relaxing weekend! I’m sorry about my lack of posting yesterday, I let myself take the day and just recover from friday night.

Friday was really great! It started with a friend coming over some pre drinks, we caught up and split a bottle of Riesling. 🙂 It was really nice to just kick back and enjoy some time with a friend. While it was hard for me at first to not think about the calories in the wine, it became easier to ignore that negative voice with each glass (not surprisingly 😉 ) Feeling a little buzzed we headed out to the bar where the party was. The birthday girl was well drunk, and we all had a great time.

I saw a lot of people who hadn’t seen me in a long time. One of my closest friends had just gotten back from a trip to Europe, and hadn’t seen me since I was at my lowest weight. When she saw me, she teared up a bit, and said I was looking so much better, and was looking a little bit more like my old self. 🙂

It was the best I have felt in a long time. The thought that I could look good has been far from my mind for months, so when people told me I did, it was hard for me to beleive it at first. But then I decided to take the compliment, and feel good about myself.

I had a great time, and left the night with many new plans to meet friends in the next week. Let it be a lesson: that even taking one step out of your shell can be a great leap forward!!

Saturday morning, was not as bad as expected! My head was throbbing a little 😉 but for the most part I was fine. I spent the morning watching trash TV with my mom (amazing hangover cure) but after a few hours we needed to get out of the house. So me, mom and my dad headed downtown and just enjoyed the weather and the bustle of the city. At around 5 I got a text from my friend inviting me to go see Bruno with a group of them.

My immediate reaction? I wanna go, but it interrupts my food schedule, so no.

Then I asked myself, would I really rather spend the night alone and stick exactlly to the food schedule or adjust the timing a little and be with my friends?

I adjusted and went! 🙂

I had an early dinner before the movie, and decided I could have the afternoon snack then instead after the movie. While it was a little anxiety provoking for me, I dealt with it, and got to see my girlies, and quite a hilarious movie.

My thoughts on Bruno? Shocking, but pretty funny 🙂 (My post title is from da film)
Compared with Borat, it was not as funny, but I still laughed quite a lot, and have never said “oh my god” so many times in one sitting, haha. I’m so happy I saw this with friends, and not my parents!! haha

So all in all a great weekend, I felt pretty free from the grips of my eating disorder, and that felt great! Friends are much better company than the ED voice.

So I didn’t photograph all my eats these past two days, but I did photograph some so here they are 🙂

Friday’s Breakfast:
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Oatmeal bagel with butter, slicd banana, tropical cottage cheese (yum) and some coffee.

This was a great breakfast, super yummy and filling. It fueled me through the whole morning 🙂 Which included a starbucks run, an eyebrow wax, and general pampering for the evening ahead.


Friday’s Lunch:

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Whole Wheat Pita with turkey, laughing cow and mustard
, with the usual sides of course.

Looks yummy? yessssss.

Mid Afternoon Fuel:
I was going to skip this snack, because of the calories I was going to be taking in in the alcohol. But then I reminded myself, normal people do not limit their food intake before they drink, so why should I? Hence the thumbs up, it was a snack in the right direction 🙂
Photo 67Smores Luna Bar

Also a quick picture of my new stunnaaaa shades I told ya’ll about. [excuse me pops in the background]

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I wish I had a photo of Friday nights dinner, it was beeaauuutiful. My mom poached some salmon in white wine and lemon juice, and also grilled some asparagus and made a gorgeous salad. It was a classy start to my messy night.

Saturday mornings breakfast was eaten half conciously, hence no photogrpah, but I had some maple oatmeal with 1/2 an english muffin spread with 1 tbsp DCD, and banana-nananana.

Morning Snack looked a little something like this:
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…or maybe just this once 🙂

Creamy Vanilla Yogurt, all bran, and just imagine some nanner slices on top.

Ain’t no such thang as too much potassium..i hope.

Lunch was the usual shebang, except a tuna melt! yummmers.
Then I read all your lovely blogs, and pondered doing an entry myself…but then we were off to the downtown, hence no postings 🙂

Before ish dashed off for some super fantastish movie watchings, Bruno, I made this lovely dinner, inspired by a few blogs I like reading:
Photo 72Sol Veggie Burger with mozzarella and ketchup on a whole wheat tortilla, panini’d and pressed. This was DELISH! Burgers on wraps, whodathunkit? But it was awesome, and definetley something I will repeat. I paired it with some steamed veggies, baby carrots, and my lemon lime gatorade.

xtra ketchup obvi on the side 🙂

I packed some kashi crackers along for the movie, and brought along my boost hoping I could have it during the movie, I ended up just having a fresh cold one when I got home instead.

np_chocoAlong with my Boost, I tried a new bar, similar to a LaraBar. It was a Nature Paths Organic Pure Fruit and Nut Bar – Chocolada Walnut flavour. I saw these in the store the other day and decided to be adventurous. It was vveeerrryyyy goood. Although nothing can take the place of larabars in my heart, these are quite similar, delicious, and come in many other flavours. Click here, for more info 🙂

Alright well I am off to enjoy the weather with the fam, we’re doing some gardening apparently. 🙂 Hope you all have a relaxing sunday, and I will be back to regular posting tomorrow.

But before ya’all dash off, make sure to check out Jaime’s fearless and fabulous GIVEAWAY 🙂 looks fantastic, yes?

Lots of love,
xx

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Look on the bright side

Hello hello hello

This is going to be a quick post because I am on my way out with the fam, but things are OK.

I’m still super bummed, but I talked with my dad, and he was up for the idea of me going back in January, and just about an hour ago, my mom suggested me going to school, but just taking a lighter course load, and coming home every weekend. So I hoooopping that will be the case. Going back at all would be fantastic! So I am keeping my hopes and my head up 🙂

Yesterday was tough, but I got through it, stuck to the plan, and I felt good by the end of the day, and had enjoyed quite a few lovely eats.

Breakfast:
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To begin bringing me out of my slump, I had a breakfast favourite. 😉

2 eggo apple cinnamon fibre plus waffles, 1 banana, cottage cheese and some coffee.

I loveeedd these waffles, it was my first time trying that flavour, and they were yummmyy, and definetley helped put a bit of a smile on my face 🙂

I talked some things over with my dad and mom, and it was a little intense. So after that, my mom and I took a stroll to the neighbouthood starbucks, to blow off some steam, with some steamy drinks:
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Double shot tall soy latte, and a chocolate chip peanut crunch clif bar.

I had this flavour before, and it was just as good this time around.
But nothing beats the maple nut. 🙂

I only had about half the bar, cause this girl was a little stuffed. I just planned to finish it later.

After this we went grocery shopping (as you notice, my mom was trying her best to cheer me up) and we got some very necessary grub which included la tortilla wraps, kashi crackers, turkey, apples, peanut butter puffins, some more clif bars and some juuiiice.

With my shiny new wraps I whipped up this DSC01753lunch:
Tortilla with lemon pepper tuna, laughing cow cheese and tomato slices {panini times} along with baby carrots, apple slices, and some pomegranate blueberry juice.

I was only able to eat half of this before I had to run out the door for my yoga session.

Yoga was the usual, super nice and relaxing. I always leave feeling so much more connected and in tune with my body 🙂 love love love it.

After yoga I promptly had my post workout snack the rest of my lunch, and read some blogs.

Before I knew it, I was off to therapy. Which went well, I would explain if I had more time, but basically he was able to clear some things up for me, and helped me to see the positives of the situation, rather than focus on the negatives. [such as having proper time to get better, spend more time with my brother who will be in the city this year etc.]

I needed some more comfort food, and what better than a little cocoa:
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Liberte Vanilla Yogurt and a cocoa mint jocolat larabar.

This is the only jocalat flavour I have tried, and I love it so much that I have yet to tear myself away from it to try the other flavours. Some day..some day..

I crumbeled it into the yogurt, and it was loverrrlyy.

After this snack, I finished up my blog entry, and got myself ready for my friends BBQ, only to get a call from her saying it was no longer a BBQ (due to some rain), just a party, and I should get myself over there just a litttlee later.

I was all dolled up with no where to go (yet)
So I just pranced around the house for a bit, and then made myself this dinner (BBQ inspired):
DSC01758 Chicken burger on a whole wheat pita, with melty cheddar cheese, mustard and ketchup.

Steamed veggies, kashi crackers and a laughing cow cheese wedge.

After one bite, I felt the burger needed some more pizzazz, so I put the LC wedge on the burger, and put that baby on the panini, again. Problem solved. This burger deserved prizes.

Photo credits go to mom, who remembered for me to snap a photo 😉

Then I was off to the BBQ. It was really fun, saw some friends, met some new people, had a drink, and felt a little more normal again. It made me realise how much we neeed interaction to be healthy. Just being with other people, and being out of the house made me feel so much more at ease with myself, and with the wholes situation. (though it did suck when people from other schools started talking about how stoked they were to come visit us at our house next year..but im keeping my hopes up! I will be there at some point!)

I headed home sometime after midnight, kinda early, but peoples had work, so it wasn’t an all night raging vibe anyway, gotta save some energy for the weekend 😉

Once home I was ready for some sleep, and tucked myself right into bed.

Well girlies, as always here is yesterdays sweet concontion:
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Cookies n Cream Ice Cream, some skor bites, the rest of my clif bar (I didnt forget 🙂 ) and some chocolate milk

I am off to sushi with the fam, we’re gonna try and just put all this drama aside for a night, and just enjoy some time together.

Then tomorrow morning I have the weigh in with my dietitan! Hoping for the best!

Have a lovely night girlies!!
xx

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Boost Induced

Friday is here, the sun is out, and I am feeling fine 🙂

I am really enjoying this blogging dealy so far, feels kind of good to be able to get all my thoughts out on “paper” haha
I also really appreciate all the comments from you girls, reminding me of what a welcoming and loving community the blogging world is. 

Thursday started out like any other, I got up, and dragged my half awake self down to the kitchen, only to discover we were missing quite a few food staples, breads, fruits, MILK!? 

So off me and my mom went to the grocery store.

I think its kind of weird how much I like grocery shopping, and this is something I have noticed on the blogs of other girls as well. But I could honestly spend hours in a grocery store..i think its fun! weird? maybe, but whatevaa 🙂 And it drives my mom crazy cause she just kinda wants to get what we need and bounce, whereas I go up and down the aisles, looking for new things to try, or finding some favourite items. Yesterday was no different, and we had quite the haul of items, no picture though girlies, sorry.

By the time we got home, I was hunngggrryyy. So i made myself this lovely breakie:
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2 eggo fibre plus blueberry waffles, with 1/2 banana, 1 container cottage cheese, and some java.

Probably one of my favourite breakfasts, but I try and keep it to once a week though, so I don’t ever get sick of it. 😉

After breakfast I wrote up my blog entry, read some of your lovely posts, and then me, my mom and my brother decided we should go do something. Though it took us forever to get out of the house, around 12 we headed out for a starbucks run, I made sure to grab myself a granola bar to enjoy along side the coffee on the way out.. IMG_0277

 

Double tall soy latte, and a sunshine valley banana nut granola bar. Love these granola bars. 

We strolled around town for a bit, looked at some design stores, and then ended up in Sleep Country Canada, where I may or may not have napped on one of the many mattresses…haha

 

 

Then we headed back home where I made myself some lunch:

IMG_0279Brown rice wrap with turkey, mozzarella, mustard and spinach, panini’d as always. 

With some carrots (way more than pictured) 1/2 a golden delicious apple, 10 kashi TLC crackers (with 1 tbsp salmon cream cheese for dipage) and some so nice mango juice.

yum yum yum.

My brother saw my lunch, and promptly made himself a wrap as well. I think it was his first time having a wrap, and damnn, he loved it. He kept on going on about how great wraps are cause you can fill them with anything you want!! And while I agree, I reminded him that the same concept applied to normal sandwiches. He was blinded by the greatness of the wrap, how can I blame him?

After lunch I kind of just chilled around the house, went to staples with my dad, bought some office supplies, chilled some more. And after all that chilling and lazing, you know I needed some snackage if I was ever going to have enough energy to chill more:
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Banana Cookie LaraBar, 1/2 normal, 1/2 crumbeled over some raspberry yogurt.  

I am really influencing my brothers diet, as soon as he saw the LaraBar, he said he wanted one too! He enjoyed the Pecan Pie LaraBar. And he is now also a LaraBar convert.

Wraps, larabars…he may soon start blogging my friends.

About one hour later my fam decided to BBQ some lamb burgers. Unfortunatley I was not quite hungry yet. So I just sat outside with them and enjoyed the weather and company. About an hour and a half later, I did begin to feel some hunger, and the lamb burgers inspired me to do some burger action of my own:

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Methinks my foodie pictures are improving yes? 

Sol Veggie Burger on a whole wheat hamburger bun, with a slice of melty processed cheese, tomato slices, ketchup and mustard, all panini’d (yes I even panini my burgers…its a problem) and some baby carrots, kashi TLC crackers (can’t get enough of these) and some banana to spread on the crackers.
(Banana and TLC crackers together taste like mini banana bread, try it ouuut)
The lot was washed down with my lemon lime gatorade of the day.  

The fam and I were gonna go out and see a movie, but we made the mistake of turning on CNN where we found the Larry King Live at Neverland Ranch…and we all kind of couldn’t stop watching. I still can’t fully beleive that Micheal Jackson is dead, he just always seemed like one of those icons who could never die you know?
Speaking of last nights Larry King, did anyone else see that video of MJ’s 2nd last rehearsal!? He was looking pretty good! Its a shame the world won’t get to see his final tour, I’m sure it would have been pretty epic!
After Larry King, we decided to rent The Pink Panther 2, too make up for the missed movie outing . Just as we were about to watch it, i realised I hadn’t had my supplement!! 

IMG_0287 It was reccomended to me back in January that I start using Boost, but back then I was no where near as ready to get better as I am now. Back then I saw Boost as some evil concotion made to make me gain weight. So i resisted and refused to try it. Then on monday when my new dietitan recommended it to me, I didn’t feel the urge to fight it anymore. 

Now I won’t lie, I was super nervous to try it. A part of me just wanted to skip it, but I’m tired of cheating myself, and I was way to full to have a clif instead (though I love them dearly) So i poured the boost in a glass and went for it, and you know what. It tasted damn good. I really enjoyed the boost, so drinking one of these a day? or having a clif? Noooo problemo. 🙂

I enjoyed the boost, and I enjoyed the movie. Goofy and off the wall, exactly the type of movie the fam was in the mood for. After the movie, I went on a nice midnight stroll with my brother. Something I love about the summer is that its still so warm at night! 

So all in all a lovely lovely Thursday. Friday promises to be quite good too, some shopping with brother downtown, maybe actually getting oursleves to a movie tonight? we shall see…I am dying to see My Sisters Keeper, everyone keeps writing about how great it is. We’ll see if I can convince my mom to go with me. 

And then Saturday I am off to a friends cottage for 2 days, very excited to get some sun, some brewski, and be with my girls! The girls I’m going with are my best friends, and we have all known each other since grade one! So I may not post till Sunday, but we’ll see 😉

IMG_0288Well I’m gonna call this a post, but I’ll leave you all with last nights dessert. (The best course, yes? youuubetcha.)

Bad lighting I know, but this lovely mix is 2 mini chocolate chip cookies with some breyers cookies n cream ice cream. And that box like dealy you see next to it, is some chocolate milk. yummmers.

 

Hope you all have a fabulous friday!

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Yummmers

Hellllooooooooo!
First real post, here we go 🙂

Yesterday started out really well.

I woke up nice and early, and decided to fix myself a breakfast I love, but also fear a bit at the same time.
Theres no picture, but I made a peanut butter banana pita panini, with some vanilla yogurt with berries and coffee on tha sidde. While I absolutely love this breakfast I tend to stray away from it, because the calorie density of the peanut butter scares me sometime. But NO MORE! Its delicious, I like it, and whooo givess a whatsit about calories yeah?

I have made the decision that this week I am going to have a TBSP of peanut butter at least every other day, and try and rid myself of this irrational fear. Should be a yummy week 🙂

After breakfast I watched some Ellen Degeners with my moms, then cleaned my room a bit..and before I knew it, it was snack time

am snack

Peach Mango Yogurt Drink, English Muffin with butter and the rest of my breakfast banana.

I wish I could say I did more in the morning, but I really just hung around with my mom, which was actually kind of nice. But I definetley think I need to get myself a hobby or something to do during the day. All my friends have summer jobs, which means most of my weekdays are pretty uneventful..maybe art classes? we’ll see

By around 1:30, I realized I hadn’t had lunch, and had to be at yoga in less than an hour! So I quickly whipped up and chowed down on the following:

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Turkey, mozzarella and mustard on a brown rice wrap, panini’d, with some baby carrots, 1/2 a golden delicious apple, and Kashi TLC crackers. All washed down with some mango juice.

Then I was off to yoga! I really love my yoga sessions, which is weird because I tried yoga two years ago and absolutely hated it. But ever since starting these private lessons back in April, I have come to really love, and even look forward to my one hour yoga sessions.

As soon as yoga was done I was straight off to my therapist session (bad scheduling on my part :p )

Therapy went pretty well, we talked a lot about how I need to let my friends in more. While I have always been realllllyyy open with my closest friends, it seems that when it comes to my ED, we have all kinda silently decided not to talk about it, except for the odd mention here and there. Rightfully so, my therapist said this wasn’t healthy for my friendships, and that I should be more open about it, especially since my friends probablly have questions they don’t feel comfertable asking etc. I do feel that a distance has been created by this ED between me and my friends, and I really don’t want that to continue. My friends mean the world too me, and I just need to remind them of that this week 🙂

By the time I got home, it had been a while since lunch and I was sttaarrvvingg.

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Cashew Cookie LaraBar (lovelovelove) and an Adina Indian Iced Chai Latte that I picked up from whole foods. I love these Iced Lattes, they add a little snaazz to my afternoon milk serving 🙂

After my snack, me and my dad went on a nice long walk around my area, just talking and enjoying the weather. We also called my brother, who is arriving today from Iceland (my country of origin yeaah buddy) to come live with us for a year. Im really excited to have him here for the year, and hey! he’s someone to hang out with during the week!! (but still..art classes..maybe?)

When we got home, my dad had already eaten about 3 of my Luna Bars and was not feeling up to dinner, so I made myself something I had been ccrraavving:

ddiinnnerrTuna Casserole! …kinda.. haha

It was 1 cup of brown rice pasta with tuna, and then 1 laughing cow cheese wedge (can’t get enough of these) melted in, and for extra cheesyness, a slice of mozzarella melted on top and then mixed in. My side dish included 1/2 an english muffin with the rest of my LC wedge, and tuna spread on it, 1/2 a golden delicious, baby carrots, and some gatorade (gotta have at least one of these a day for the electrolytes apparently..anyone else have to include elctrolytes?)

I enjoyed my dinner while watching a documentary with my dad, Jesus Camp, has anyone seen this!? I won’t ruin it for all of you, but this movie is craazzy good. Although I myself am not religious, I do think its great when people have a faith they are dedicated to, but when it goes to such extremes as it does in this documentary, it can be a scary thing.

wooo, this post is getting tooo long, so I’ll just finish off with my desert and call it a day:

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A crumbeled nature valley maple brown sugar bar, with some Breyers cookies and cream ice cream. A lil choco milk on da siddee.

Alright, well first post done. That was fun 🙂

I promise I will work on shortening things and taking more appealing pictures.

Hope you all have a lovely wednesday, and for those of you in Canada with mee

HAPPY CANADA DAY!!

xo

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