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One Long Weekend

Happy Civic Holiday!

I’m not sure if this is also in the states, but in Canada, its a civic holiday today, so its a looong weekend 🙂 

I’m sorry I haven’t been posting too regularly, things have just been super busy. I have been spending lots of time with family, and friends, wich is exactlly what I have been needing. The meal plan has been going well mostly, though I think the change is still affecting me a bit 😉

In all the craziness, I have been able to photograph most of my eats, so hows about a quick weekend recap yes?

Friday

Breakfast:
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Whole wheat pita stuffed with 1 scrambled egg, diced tomato and 1 slice melty cheddar cheese. With some sliced apple and ketchup on the side 🙂

 

Lunch:
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Black Forrest Ham, laughing cow cheese, tomato and dijon mustard on 2 slices rye bread.
Carrots and Orange Mango Juice on the side. 
 

 

As you may notice, there is a lot of salt on top of the sandwich and on the side. I know its not good for me, but I use A LOT of salt. At almost every meal. I kinda just feel like food is tasteless without a good salting.

Is there a condiment/topping you guys use a lot (or maybe too much) of? Any other salters out there?

After this lunch I headed down to a historic district in my city with my mom. Its an old brewery, and many of the old buildings have been converted into new stores and restaurants. Its a great place to go on a sunny day, when you just wanna browse and be in a nice atomosphere. After some browsing, momma started getting hungry for some lunch, so we sat down at one of the restaurants there: 

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Mommas Lunch: House baguette with white bean hummus

After her lunch, we walked around the area a bit more which is when I saw this amazingness:

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That takes some skill! There was a whole series of pictures like this, as well as an Andy Warhol portrait of Marilyn Monroe.

I can barely solve a rubix cube, let alone use them to recreate art!!

 

When I got home this snack was throughly enjoyed:
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Quaker Brown Sugar Cinnamon oatmeal with 1 sliced banana and a tbsp of Dark Chocolate Dreams. Vanilla Boost too. 🙂

 This snack gave me all the fuel I needed to write that loooonnnggg post, and do some blog reading.

At around 9, I headed out to Sushi with my brother! Yay!!

We tried out a new sushi place close to the theatre we were going too. I won’t lie, the sushi place was a little sketch, it was empty, it smelled a little bad, but we were in neeed of some sushi, so we decided to take our chances. 

 I had some miso soup and a california roll.  And actually it tasted pretty damn good. Will we go there again? no, were we well fed? yes!

So then we were off to the movies where we saw “Moon”

 Its a somewhat odd sci-fi movie with the guy Drew Barrymore hooks up with in Charlie’s Angels, haha. I am usually not one for sci-fi movies, or movies about space. But oddly enough I really liked it! Its definetley not a movie that will cheer you up, its one of those movies that makes you realise that things kind of suck, haha, but a good quality film nonetheless.

While in the theatre I had an Envirokidz Peanut Butter Bar

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This was my attempt to get in both my 3 choice evening snack and high energy serving. I decided I would have this granola bar in the theatre, and then have my high energy at home, along with my chocolate milk, which I would usually have had with this bar. 

The plan went swimmingly and this was consumed when I got home:
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Mini So Delicious Ice Cream Sammie, with vanilla pudding, and chocolate milk. oohh and a caramilk chocolate square as well. 

It had been way to long since my last caramilk. I have a whole bag of these mini bites, so I think I will be adding them to my high energies now and again, just for that added yumminess. 🙂

Saturday

Breakfast:
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Banana Bonanza: Thomas Multigrain English Muffin with 1 tbsp Maranatha Peanut Butter, 1 tbsp strawberry cream cheese and a huuugggee sliced banana. Java alongside.

As you can guess from the name of my blog, this breakfast was kind of a dream come true.

Lunch:

IMG_03612 slices pumpernickel bread with 2 slices Black Forrest Ham, laughing cow cheese wedge, tomato slices, and dijon mustard. Panini grilled, and then dipped in 1 tbsp ketchup on the side. As well as a sliced green apple and some unpictured orange mango juice.

After this lunch, I went downtown with my brother, where we browsed some shops and checked out an up and coming area in my city, that has a really artsy alternative vibe. The weather was fantastic, and it was really refreshing to explore a new part of the city.

Even more refreshing was this snack:
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Strawberry fro-yo with blueberries

This was something my dietician had asked me to do, have a snack out. And while my anxiety level was a bit high right before, as soon as I had the first bite that all melted away. This was absolutley delicious. My brother got one as well. And about 20 minutes later, he got a second one!!

Needless to say, we have planned for many more fro-yo outings. 

After all our walking and exploring downtown, me and my brother wanted to just stay in and take it easy. We also got lazy with dinner preparation, both of us turned to Amy’s Products to save the day. 

My brother heated up Amy’s Margherita Pizza, which he said was deeelish.

Whereas I heated up an old favourite:

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Amy’s Black Bean Burrito with laughing cow cheese, steamed veggies and an orange mango juice. Ketchup for some dip-age to.

Then some dessert:
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 Strawberry Yogurt and some Annie’s Honey Graham Bunnies, as well as the Boost I missed earlier in the day when I was downtown. 

After all this chow, me and my brother settled our stomachs while watching an old 80’s comedy called “Spies Like Us” with Dan Akroyd and Chevy Chase. I laughed myself silly, it was a great movie. There are so many great old movies you never think to watch, just cause there is always something new to see, but every once in a while, its nice to watch some classics. 

Then it was time for my evening snack:
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Cashew Cookie LaraBar and Soy Milk (which I frothed afterwards, mmm like a latte minus the coffee) Twas the perfect evening pre-bed snack.

I am thinking about talking with my dietician about moving the high energy to maybe after lunch or something, because I am finding it a bit overwhelming to have it after dinner, as well as an evening snack. But then again that may just be because my dinners always end up being so late, anyway we will see what happens with that 🙂

Sunday:

I slept in quite a bit, I guess I had been somewhat lacking in sleeping hours, so feeling well rested, I made an Adventurous breakfast:
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I had allowed myself to become scared of pancakes for some ridiculous reason, and on Sunday, I decided the only way to shatter that fear, would be to enjoy some pancakes.

 Aunt Jemima’s Buttermilk Pancakes with 1 sliced banana, 100g vanilla yogurt and some java.

Ain’t it pretty? And it was super yummy! I am defintley no longer afraid of pancakes. In fact after breakfast I began thinking up new ways to try the pancake. Maybe by making banana pancakes, and instead of two small ones, make one big one?

Mmm, excited to try those soooooon.

If you girls are holding back from trying something new, or having something you are wanting, because you are scared. Try and Just do it! 

I promise the scariest moment is always in the 20 seconds before you do it, and then I PROMISE all that anxiety will melt away as you allow yourself to enjoy something your brain had convinced you you weren’t allowed to enjoy 😉

After breakfast, my bestie called me and asked if she could come over and chill a bit before her shift, and I told the biddy to head on over.

It was really nice to see her again, and just catch up on the weekends activities. I unfortunately did not see much of her on the weekend, cause the girlie has started a new job, that includes a lot more weekend hours. boooo. 

After some catching up, we headed out to a health food store near my house, where the girl picked up some cleanse pills, while I grabbed some much needed Luna Bars, LaraBars, and more mini So Delicious Ice Cream Sammies.

Once we got back to my house, she found out that one of her friends was able to cover her shift, so she could have the day off! Weee!! To celebrate we made some lunch:
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2 slices pumpernickel bread with 2 slices deli chicken breast, laughing cow cheese, tomato slices, dijon mustard, baby carrots, ketchup and salt salt salt salt salt. 

 This has become my go to sandwich as of late, its just so yummy and filling, I can’t bring myself to change it up. My friend had pretty much the same thing, except in an ezekial wrap. 

Excited by her sudden freedom we brainstormed on things to do. A few ideas were tossed around, including a trip to Costco. 

 However, we decided to go for a short trip to the park to swing on the kiddie swings, before heading to a day showing of “The Ugly Truth”

(I go to a lot of movies eh?)

 I actually really liked it! I laughed really hard, and thoroughly enjoyed myself. 

 

So to review:

1. “Moon” – good to go see if you are feeling deep and in need of some confusion

2. “Spies Like Us” – a great 80’s comedy classic

3. “The Ugly Truth” – Really perfect chick flick, go see it with some of your best girlies, and it will be a good time 🙂
 

After the movie, me and the bestie parted ways, as I had to head home have a snack and get myself ready to go out for a reunion dinner with some friends. You see one of my friends moved to the other side of Canada for school, and ended up staying out there for the summer. So yesterday she came back, after 8 months of being away!! Needless to say, I was really exicted to see the girl.

Snack:
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Repeat picture 🙂
Whole Wheat Bread with laughing cow cheese, tomato slices and a Vanilla Boost

This was delicious as always, and served as the perfect appetizer for the dinner I was off to. 

I was so happy to see my friend again, 8 months is way to long to not see or talk to a friend. She looked really good, and happy and it was great to all catch up over a great meal. 

We went to a great thai place in the heart of the clubbing district.  

I ordered the Teriyaki Glazed Grilled Salmon with Rice and Steamed Veggies. I also had a glass of chardonnay, and a beer back at my friends house 🙂

No pictures girls, sorry! But It was delicious. When Dessert time came around I had promised myself I would order dessert, and challenge myself with that! But alas, I freaked myself out a bit, and ended up not ordering anything. I was kind of upset with myself, but you can’t win em’ all. I have just decided that because of that little slip up, the next time I am out to dinner, I will order a dessert, and enjoy it! Cause if the pancakes were any indicator, food is never something to be feared!!

To make up for the missed dessert and such I tucked into this snack when I got home:
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Chocolate Chip Peanut Crunch Clif and some Chocolate Milk (which tasted as decadent as that picture looks) 

All in all it was a great weekend. I was able to go to sushi with my brother, and stick to the meal plan, I was able to spend some time with my best friend, and go to dinner with an old friend and stick to the plan then as well.

I hope all your weekends were relaxing and enjoyable. I can’t wait to read up on them and comment away 🙂

Also, thank you all for your kind comments on my last post. I loved each and every one, and its definetley nice to know I am not alone in struggling with a few things. Lets all just try our best to not be so hard on ourselves, allow ourselves to enjoy the little joys in life, and not let silly anxieties hold us back! 

Hope you all have a great start to the week!!
xx

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Bad News…

Well it’s Hump Day!

And unfortunatley I’m in a little bit of a slump (hah, witty)
Last night my parents went out to dinner together, and when they got back I could tell something was wrong. My dad didnt talk to me, or look me in the eye, and my mom was being SUPER nice. Too Nice.

About an hour later, I got to talking to my mom. And..it wasn’t good. It turned out that over dinner my dad told her that he had e-mailed my school, and my landlord (I was renting a house with 4 other girls next year) and told both that I would not be returning for school and asked for instructions on how to delay my courses/rent.  

At first I couldn’t speak. I literally had no words. This was something my dad had been kind of threatening if my weight didn’t go up more, soon. But it was something he was going to talk to me about first. And then he just did it anyway. I felt betrayed.

I have been working so hard, and going back to school has been my main motivation, and now it seems that has all gone away. 

I know my housemates are going to be annoyed because now they have to find someone else to take the room, and I know that everyone at school is going to know why I am not there. I know they are going to be talking about how I couldnt come back because I was still sick. And whats worse, and what is scaring me right now, is that while the first few months people will notice I’m not there, soon they will get used to not having me around, and maybe soon I won’t be missed. And even if I do get to go back next fall, I feel like it will all be so different. I will be a year behind everyone else, and everyone will know why I had to take a year off. I feel so ashamed. and gosh, girls, I just feel so sad. 

A part of me feels all my hard work has gone to waste. But the deepest part of me knows that is wrong. The progress I have made still counts. And I need to hold onto that right now, and not go the other direction, because really that won’t make things any better. I am going to keep gaining, and keep moving forward. The sooner my weight goes up, the sooner I can get back to LIFE!

Who knows, maybe I can go back in January, and only be half a term behind.

Its just so frustrating to me because I haven’t been weighed since I started this new meal plan last week. I may very well have gained, and my dad is just assuming the worst!!!

I’m seeing my therapist today, and maybe he will be able to help me sort through this. But yeah, I’m not feeling so fantastic right now. 

My best friends having a BBQ tonight, so I’m hoping that will lift my spirits a little. It will be nice to see friends, and get away from the parents and “reality” of it all for a bit.

“ahh yesterday…all my troubles seemed so far awayyyy..”

Breakfast:
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1 egg scrambled, 1 laughing cow wedge on an english muffin, panini’d to perfection.
1 banana sliced up, and some unpictured Java.

I was gonna have the blueberry yogurt, but was feeling kind of full, so decided to have some dairy lataaaa.

After Breakfast, my mom invited me on an outing to Ikea, and I happily obliged. Being Swedish, Ikea is the closest thing we have to our Scandinavian roots here in Canada, and so we pay them a patriotic visit from time to time 🙂 
One of my favourite things about Ikea, are their Swedish Meatballs,
 my oh myy, I used to always get the managers special portion (oh you know the one, with like 20 meatballs!?) which I would have done the yesterday had I not just eaten my lovely breakfast sandwich. We did however walk by the Ikea cafe, where I saw this somewhat shocking poster.
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A whole breakfast like that for ONE DOLLA!?

Is anyone else concerned with what the food is made of when they sell it for a single buck?

Crazy ikea corporation swedish folk.

 

After roaming around Ikea for a bit, we didn’t find much of anything, so we decided to just head home, but we did manage to pick up some daim mini bites (ahhhmazzzinngg chocolate, I can only ever find them  in Ikea) I was stoked.

Once we got home, I got to snackin’
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Creamy Vanilla Yogurt and a crumbeled up Fruit n Fibre Bar. Yum Yum Yum.

While eating, I did my blogging for the day, and some facebook chattin/creepin. 

Then me and my mom realised that the Micheal Jackson Memorial was on TV! 

We watched for a bit, pretty huge event eh? I thought it was pretty well done, and nice that his life could be celebrated like that. I do have to say though, that I find it hard to forget that he may or may not have violated some young kids…so I still feel kind of iffy about the guy. 😦

Some time later lunch was eaten, but i guess I was pretty hungry, cause I totally forgot to take a picture!! It was pretty standard though, turkey, laughing cow cheese, tomato and mustard on a whole wheat pita, with some apple slices, kashi crackers 1tbsp cream cheese aaaand some lovely mango orange juice. Yum. 
 
After lunch my brother got home from work and suggested we go for a bike ride (which I made sure was quick and light no worries 😉 )

We just biked around my neighbourhood and it was really nice to be out of the house in the nice weather, and doing a bit of exercise!! I definetley noticed that my muscles were a little weaker from not having exercised in soooooo long. But I understand that my body needs a rest, and I’m happy to give it them time it needs. I’m just looking forward to building up that strength again some day 🙂

After the bike ride I was feeling kind of  peckish (sp?) 

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Banana and Butter on a slice of ezekial toast, which I paired with a tropical cottage cheese, and a Strawberry Boost.

Jenna left me a comment the other day saying that Strawberry was the best Boost flavour, so I made sure to pick some up, and my oh my was she ever right. It was delisshh!!

Sometime after this snack my parents got back from dinner, and thats when the day took a pretty sharp turn from fine to terrible. My mom, seeing I was upset took me out for a bit, which was nice. I definetley did not want to be in the house with my dad at that point.

A part of me does think that a year off would be good for me, to give me time to truly get completly better. But I wish it could have been MY decision, not my Dad’s. Its my life, and right now it doesn’t seem I have much say in it 😦

I needed some cheering up, so I treated myself to a dinner fit for a King Queen.

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The lightings a little off, but this beauty was a Salmon Burger Pattie, brushed with maple teriyaki sauce (from the barefoot contessa, love that biddy) brown rice, spinach and steamed veggies accompanied by a laughing cow cheese wedge, apple slices, and some almond milk 🙂
This was super yummy, satisfying and filling. It was also a step in the right direction. 

Not going back to school is a bit of a set back, but Im not going to give up now on getting better. I am NEVER going to go back to restricting. 

Cause (and the wit continues) it has really only restricted my freedom in life!!

The Cherry on Top:

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Deep chocolate vitamuffin top, with vanilla pudding, chocolate milk, aaaannnnddd a couple daim bites. (yum!)

 

 
Well I am off to get myself ready for some BBQ action, I just got back from my therapist, and shiz was good, but I’ll leave that for another post, cause this one is LLOOONNNGGG.

Love you all! Stay Strong!! I know I’m gonna try!
xx

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“You can always go, Downtown…”

Gooood Morning, I hope you all had a great start to the week.

Mine was pretty good. As nice as it was to be with my friends this weekend, it felt good to get back to routine a bit, and just enjoy a day to myself 🙂

Breakfast was deeeelish:
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, buttered post picture, 1/2 green apple, strawberry cottage cheese (more than pictured, I just put some on the plate for you ladies to seee) and some 1% milk

This was my first time having these cinnamon raisin bagels, and my oh my were they good. For everyone in Canada, these are the Presidents Choice Bleu Menu Cinnamon Raisin Bagels. I highly reccomend them, delicious, and good for you!!

After breakfast I uploaded my pictures and videos from the cottage, blogged,  and then caught up with all of your lovely blogs, and it seems everyone had a great holiday weekend 🙂

After all that time in front of the computer, I needed to get myself out of the house. So got myself prettied up, and walked downtown (only about 10 minutes from my house, our area is great in that way as it is really quiet and feels closed off from the bustle of the city, yet in reality, its just a few blocks away 😉 ) The weather was amazing once again, so I walked slow and just took it all in.

photo-2 Once downtown I grabbed myself a double tall soy latte (are we sensing a pattern here?) and nibbled on this bar that I grabbed before leaving the house.

Kellogs Fruit n Fibre Bar. They don’t sell these in Canada, but I bought a big box of them when I was in Iceland. I know they are not the healthiest for you, methinks there may be some high fructose corn syrup in there. But I really like em’. So whatevvvaaaa.

Of course I also ended up in Whole Foods, where I restocked on some things: deep chocolate vita tops, some clif bars, a mint jocolat bar, yogurt, and some Amy’s instant meals (personal cheese pizza, spinach and feta pocket) I’m looking forward to trying out 🙂 

Are there any Amy’s products you guys reccomend?
I have had the burrito, and I loved that, but I definetley wanna expand on that. There are many a time when an instant meal would come in handy. 🙂 

Then I headed back home with all the yummy loot. Once I got home, and sorted all the stuffs away, I made myself some lunch:
Photo 572 slices Ezekial Bread, with 1 large turkey slice, 1 slice melty plastic cheddar, and some mustard. And as always, 1/2 green apple, 9 kashi TLC crackers, and some lemonade. We were out of carrots, I cried a little.

I didn’t realise until I uploaded the picture, but my outfit yesterday def had a halloweeny feel eh?

Twas a very yummy lunch, it had been a while since I had proper sandwhich bread, and my oh my had I missed it. After lunch my mom said she had to do some grocery shopping downtown, and asked me if I wanted to go along

grocery shopping? downtown (again!?) Obvi I went.

It felt really good to be out of the house so much today, and also spend some more time with the moms. We unfortunately got in a bit of a fight on the way home (shes basically just frustrated with my whole situation (slow weight gain etc), and sometimes that comes out in somewhat unreasonable arguments) While at first I decided to just storm off and walk ahead of her home, about 3 minutes in, I realised I wasn’t achieving anything, and it would just make things worse later. So I sucked it up, went back to her and said I didn’t want to be in a fight with her. I was still mad, but after about 10 minutes the anger passed, and she apoligized for blowing up as well. Crisis averted 🙂

Once we got home I decided to give my bestie a ring. Girlie had just gotten out of work completley exhausted and was headed to the gym to get her sweat on. (Thats one of the things I use to motivate myself, the sooner I get my weight up, the sooner I can begin to be active again and build a healthy relationship with exercise.) For the most part it was just a normal catch up sesh, but then she kind of surprised me by saying “what was wrong at the cottage?” I was definetley surprised by this, because as I told all you girls I had a great time. But I guess she noticed a few of the times I had mini panics about the unplanned food and such, cause she said there were times when she would see me and knew I was not all there, that a lot of me was preoccupied with what was in my head, (people know us much better than we think.) I explained to her the worries I had been having some of the time, but assured her I did have a great time. She was happy to hear that, but kind of upset that I had not talked to her about it, and reminded me to keep being open with her. At the time, I didn’t want to talk to her about it cause i didn’t want to ruin her good time at the cottage, but she said the only thing that really hindered the weekend for her was that she felt I was holding back from her, and that all she really wanted was for me to tell her at the time and let me know what was going on, so she could help me! 

I honestly feel so blessed to have friends that truly care about me, and are really there for me no matter what. I just need to remember to reciprocate. Be as open with them as they are with me, and be more present in their lives, and NOT pull away.  

Feeling resolved I headed down to the kitchen and whipped up a snack:
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1/2 english muffin with 1 tbsp white chocolate wonderful (yum) 1 banana, and a chocolate boost. 

After this snack I decided my hair was lookin a little nasty, and felt I should shower. Enjoying feelin so fresh and so clean clean, I chilled around the house doing pretty much nothin’ until the hunger started to roll around, and I decided to start making some dinner. 

After reading this fabulous blog, I was craving myself a chicken wrap for dinner. So away I went on preparing some chicken for my wrap. However, being the forgetfull girl I am, I left my chicken in the oven tooo long, and the beauty burned. 😦

It was getting too late to wait another half an hour for another chicken breast, so instead I microwaved myself a veggie burger and enjoyed the resulting meal: 

Photo 61 Sol veggie burger with some more melty cheddar cheese, tomato slices, onion, mustard and ketchup on a whole wheat hamburger thin. Obvi it went on the panini grill too. Still lacking in carrots, I had MORE apple slices, some blueberry yogurt, and my fruit punch gatorade on the side. 

After dinner, I watched Kramer vs. Kramer with the parents. Its a great movie from the late 70’s starring a super young Dustin Hoffman and Meryl Streep. The movie basically focuses on a custody hearing between Hoffman and Streep over who should have sole custody of their kid (cutest kid ever by the way) after Streeps character leaves the family with no explanation for 8 months, only to return saying she wants the kid she had left! Craaaaazyy.

All in all it was a pretty good start to the week. Theres not too much planned for this week, which I am actually kind of looking forward too. Just taking it easy and seeing where the week takes me.

A BIG thank you for your supportive comments. Its really nice to know that my blog is being read, and hearing from you girls that I am doing well, is even more affirming, and motivates me to keep getting better! 🙂

Now you know I had to end the day on a sweet note:
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A deep chocolate vita muffintop (microwaved to maximize yumminess), with smores pudding and some chocolate milk. 

A yummy end to the day.

Alright I am off to watch the MJ memorial on TV. Should be pretty epic.

Have a great day girlies!!
xx

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New In Town

Goood Morning All!
I hope you all had a lovely wednesday, mine was pretty good 🙂

I woke up kinda late, so I immediately fixed myself a loverly breakfast:

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Egg McMuffin: english muffin with one scrambeled egg and a slice of mozzarella. Accompanied by 1/2 a golden delicious, leftover egg, and some ketchup. Was gonna have the soy milk, but opted for some espresso after the picture was taken 🙂

Then it was straight on to cleaning. Me and my parents cleaned the entire house yesterday, it was craziness. And it was all because my brother was arriving yesterday from Iceland. For some reason whenever a family member is arriving, or returning from a trip, its like an expectation of our family that the house be perfectly clean. Its kind of hilarious, especilly since I’m sure my brother would barely notice a difference, but its nice I guess to make an effort. 🙂

Around 11 my best friend called me, and asked if I would go with her to buy some breakfast (she eats late) which I was def up for, so biddy came over, and off we went. Within 5 minuts of being in her car, she asked how I was, why we hadnt talked in so long (2 days..which is a long time for us haha) and whether I had anything I wanted to talk about. This immediately reminded me of what my therapist had been telling me about being more open with my closest friends (see last post) and so I was happy that the oppourtunity was presenting itself so quickly. I tried my best to explain my behaviour and situation to her:  I told her that even though I wanted to talk to her so many times about what was going on, and I wanted to tell her everything, my fear of being a nuisance, or bringing down the mood of the chill sesh (dont know where that term came from) always kept me from letting her in. I also apoligized for being so absent from her life, I don’t know about you girls, but I definetley isolate myslef quite a bit. It just feels safer to stay home with my parents and the food I know, where I have control, than to go out with friends and just live life unplanned. I explained that this was something i was going to work on changing, and even better, she said she would help me do that! She also told me that it only ever made her happy when we talked about it, because it made her relived to know what was going on with me, to hear I was working on getting better, and made her feel she could help me in some way. We ended up having a really good talk, and both opened up to eachother, and a lot of the tension that had been underlying in our relationship was lifted. After the heavy talk, she came back to my house and had her breakfast, while I had a snack, and we just talked and hung out like old times, it really felt great. Girlies, if you have a friend you are holding back from, for fear that they don’t want to hear about your ED, or because you don’t want to talk about it yourself, let that person in. I can tell you now from experience, theres no better feeling than reconnecting with a friend you were beginning to distance yourself from. I think when we stop caring about ourselves, its easy to forget that other people still do care about us. Being alone ain’t no fun, friends are good for the soul.

DSC01683I didn’t photograph my snack with my friend, no one knows about this bloggie, except for my mom, but here’s what snack consisted of, a creamy vanilla yogurt and a to go pack of all bran buds. Love me some fibre.

The rest of the day was continued mmaaaaaddd cleaning. I took a break from my windex and cloth around 2 for some lunchie:

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My photographing skills clearly still need some work, but the pita was filled with a laughing cow cheese wedge and a large slice of turkey and some mustard. Then some carrots, the other 1/2 of my golden delicious apple, Kashi TLC Crackers and mango juice.

I ate my lunch while watching an episode of Frasier. I absolutely love old sitcoms, I could rewatch episodes of seinfeld or frasier anyday. So much better than all this new reality TV bussiness…not that I don’t love me some housewives of …jon and kate plus 8 or paris’s new BFF now and again. haha

Something kind of challenging for me today was implementing an increase to my meal plan. I started with a new dietitan on Monday, who said I should add either a boost or a clif bar everyday, to up them cals just a lil more 😉

Photo 998She told me to have it with lunch, which I had planned on doing, but it ended up being a bit too overwhelming for me, so I waited 2 hours, and then I got down to bussiness. I lovelovelove clif bars, so for my first day of the new meal plan, I thought I would start with something I truly enjoy. Maple Nut, which is my favourite flavour so far, and some vanilla soy milk.

As far as clifs go I have tried maple nut, toffee peanut buzz, carrot cake, chocolate chip and chocolate chip peanut crunch. My fav has always been maple nut, with chocolate chip peanut crunch in a close second. Any flavours you girls reccomend? I am dying to try the WCM clif, but noooo dice, seeing as they aren’t sold here in Canada. lameeeo.

After the clif, I went for a quick walk with my dad in the lovely canada day weather. When we got back we found out that our neighbour had decided to throw a Canada Day street party, and was setting up BBQ’s and a cooler full of brewski’s. So suddenly we had Canada Day plans, which was great 🙂

I hung out with my neighbours, which was great cause I hadn’t seen them all in a long time and we all used to be super close. There about 5 of us on the street all around the same age, and growing up we literally spent everyday together. Because my brother is a whole 12 years older than me he moved out for school around when I was 7, so having these other kids on the street was great for me. They were like the siblings I never had 🙂

At around 7 I had to scurry off quickly to tuck into this snack: 1/2 an english muffin, with some banana and a good amount of PB (maybe?) washed down with some mo’ vanilla soy milk.

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So I am sticking to this peanut butter challenge, but I need some help from you girls, does that amount of PB seem decent?
Then it was back to the street party. Which was lots of fun. About half way through the evening, my brother arrived!! WEEE!! It was great to have him back. My family always feels complete when he is around..wonder why, haha. So I chilled with him and my neighbours and enjoyed the BBQ, along with some BBQ delights:

DSC01691Salmon Burger on a whole wheat pita, with a laughing cow cheese wedge, ketchup, and some carrots. (The nice thing about a street party..your own condiments are just steps away..

Once again, I will take some food photography classes, cause that shit looks naaassty.

Well once again I feel like this post may be dragging on, so I’m gonna wrap it up soon. All in all it was a great day. I really stuck to my meal plan, aimplemented the supplement increase with little anxiety, reconnected with my best friend, chilled with the my childhood besties, and got my brother back. An excellent start to July, and a great Canada day.

So I’ll finish off with desert, and a song ya’ll should give a listen to. I used its title as the name of my post because 1. I am new in this blogging town, 2. my brother just got back to town, and 3. my best friend can absolutely not get this song out of her head. Its a goodie. New in Town <—click it

DSC01694Chocolate pudding, with 2 mini soft chocolate chip cookies, and some chocolate milk. 🙂

Oh and just a quick note about my eats. I don’t think I am gonna post everything I eat in a day always, but just for these first few posts I will, cause they kinda give my posts direction, and also because I am trying to make myself come to terms with the amount of food I am eating, and accept that its what I need to get better. I am also posting all of my eats right now, because I remember reading blogs, and seeing what other girls were eating, and realising that I was not alone in having to eat a lot really helped me to stick to my meal plan, and stay motivated. 🙂

So, if your reading this, and your going through a meal plan situation like me. We need it girlies!! It will make us better! And instead of resisting it, lets enjoy it! Like my best friend said to me yesterday, she would trade my meal plan with what she eats anyday!

Hope you all have a great day!
Lots of Love!

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